thanks Dannie, fox and ndnhc. a very big thanks for your advice. again, i have giving up for now but who knows in the future. it means a lot to know there is good people out there. i hope you all find what you are looking for in life.

fox, i had a government job and got paid for taking care of her. i had that job 15 or so years till she passed. i would of taken care of her even without getting paid. i loved her very, very much even if i did a lot of bad things to her. before i got the government job i had normal jobs. so 15 years of really no references from that job. in short: it's been hard finding work after she passed. i could get a job taking care of bed-ridden people as that is my last experience but i only did that job and put my life on hold for her. looking back, i bet if i did not take that jpb and moved out i bet she would still be alive today as again, i took years off her life from the stress i caused.

really, i know this reads like a sob story and in a way it is. however, i'm just trying to make a point on how quickly your life can turn into pure hell if you have a gambling problem. thanks for reading and your support.

p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha

any kids out there read this (bad grammar and all)...

Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.

Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.

About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.

Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.

I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.

That's it.

yeah, good point. he does leave his address once in awhile. however, if 'uknohowwedo' was legit he'd find a way to pay it back. he'd also still stick to his terms when he tried to get the loan.

i need a break from this section. good luck all.

not all are alts. like this scumbag who writes perfect English. you honor a loan even if the person who lent it might be up to no good.

bump

didn't you get paid today so you can pay back manyproofs? and you are asking for other loans... my offer is off the table. i give up trying to make myself believe there are still decent people out there. i should have not got involved as it seems those people were right in calling you a scammer in this instance.

piss off

boy, you hold a grudge. not good for your health man

dang it. i'll have to pass for now. thanks though.

i thought it could have been some kind of a hacker link. if they have a system where there is no middleman (somehow) i'd bite. these bitcoin books have a long, long while to catch up to a book like Pinnacle, in my opinion

wow... Pinnacle. have not used them since they banned US players. however, i'm a little concerned clicking that link. can you please explain how it works in this topic?

you can't wait till tomorrow? play some video games or something. just distract yourself.

look dude, what you are doing right now is scammy. if your gambling is as bad as mine i feel for you BUT pay back manyproofs first before asking for another loan. if you do that i might be able to lend to you in the future and who knows, others might as well. keeping this topic open is a bad idea.

damn, i'm going to start following your picks here. hope the OP stays true to his word.

dude, please do not turn scammer. if you lose it still pay it back. manyproofs is getting scammed left and right, do not add to it. glad you got the loan.

i do not know this person. what i do know is QS seems to get off giving negative feedback and destroying someones rep here and it seems letyouearn does as well. i can spot scammers and in my opinion, this person is not. gambler yes but not a scammer. gamblers at times show desperation (no offence OP) just like scammers do.

flame on

not to hijack the OP but i always wanted to run a book (none of the casino shit, i want to not rob people and maybe sleep at night). i looked into those sportsbooks PHP scripts and that was it as i will never have a BR to back it. i'm sure i'd find a way to fail though just like i do sports betting   anyone here tried?

well, that's my dream

well, this place does not like gamblers like us so you might be waiting till monday. i know how it is man, it sucks. i'd loan you but i'm on tilt. however, you know if you have good collateral you still might have a chance.

good luck

this dude is not a scammer, stop busting his balls. OP, offer better collateral and just give it some time. you know how this place works, don't feed the trolls.

maybe offer credit if you become a long time customer? that is something that is rare these days concerning online books.

na i'm not gonna freeroll you dude, but thanks. if you set up an escrow i'll deposit. i would take man u -150

edit: just think of something you can offer that no other book has.