In most threads in the off topic where most newbies gather and talk about off topic stuff..what are the chances that merit will be given by a full member and above?

Mainly chronic pressure and post trauma experiences. Depression is sometimes hard to detect and one might not know it..

I think of sakura flower, delicious finds in back alley shops, anime and shopping!

I prefer smoking, i dont really vape per se since most of my friends around me are social smokers as well..

Nowadays when bitcoin transaction so high, i doubt it will be economical to do a monthly subscription.

However, your transaction will be anonymous instead of being charged to your credit card.

Learn to take things naturally, be aware of your emotions. You must be honest with your emotions, take things objectively and if things go south... try not to push yourself too hard.