Bitcoin travesty!

Ugh I keep getting these reports and ads of how in 2012, $1000 in bitcoin would have turned to 3 million dollars.

Here's the thing. I litterally had $1000 in 2012. And I was litterally told to invest in bitcoin around 2012-2013

Saying this triggers me is an understatement, it litterally ruins my whole day and consumes my mind. I am litterally living below the poverty level and much of my own family doesn't even talk to me anymore. I litterally am living in a bad reality/twilight zone/perdition like I failed the videogame and got the "Game Over" message and now I am sent to the bad world. With this money I could have saved the planet. Now I get to live powerless saturateed by the evils around me. I could have had the good life. And don't tell me that you can be happy being poor, I litterally can't even afford a car to get a decent job. And in America, noone treats you like a human being until you get to middle class.

So, I think about suicide alot but I promised I would never do it. Because I think about the Romeo and Juliet movie, I think about dying then 5 years later they laugh about the irony of how I died, and all of my hodlings went to the moon.

I tell this to my friend and they say, keep the faith, bitcoin will rise, altcoin will rise, I'm still in the game, but I just see it all going down each day, I had a coinsmarket account and even that is still down, especially with all this China and Korea bullshit my life is torment, I am wondering the future of the free market. And each day is torment, I keep trying to remember if I ever invested in Bitcoin in 2013, can't remember, they deleted all my emails, so I think I will send a message to Coinbase seeing if I had any old accounts there. Fucking Microsoft might have deleted the email I needed to remember if I had a million dollars, what a fucking travesty...

I just wish back then I was more sane. Because I remember being wishy washy about Bitcoin, but thinking about it a lot. But I can't actually remember if I had actually invested...I had a lot of people problems and heavy things on my mind at the time. Now, I just wish that I knew what coin to put 1000 dollars into, I just wish someone would tell me what is "the next" bitcoin. I know bitcoin is still going to be hot because the Lightning Network will fix the lag...but I just wish I knew what "the next bitcoin altcoin" was to put $1000 into it.