The damage has been done. I hold some regrets but I wish there was a way to place your posts in the more recent part of the thread. If that was possible, there would be none.
It was not the first- but the second attempt to censor that conversation so I don't find your sudden remorse particularly credible.
But as you said "the damage has been done"- meaning by all indications you are unable to fulfill your duties, so rather than risk additional errors at the expense of others the right thing would be to graciously resign your post as moderator.
I am sure you are very capable in other ways, but I'm equally sure you would agree after recent events this is clearly not where your aptitudes lie.