Please, please, please, please, please, please, please.... a thousand please to all those peoples who are careless and does not double checks where they are sending payment. Please always double, tripple check before you send a payment even if it is 1k sats.
Carelessness is one of the reasons why do people get victimized with Phishing scams.They do neglect even on the basics on checking the correct url.
Feels sad for OP but dont let your emotions control you and decide to end up your life. Money can still be recovered or earned but your life dont.
Just think that you arent the only one who do experience such problem and even some of them entirely lose out their lifetime savings due to scams.
So stay strong and pursue to continue in living.