But anyway sorry for that and if you don't mind can you share the occurrence with us of what really happened with you. Maybe someone can help you retrieve your lost Bitcoin.
I don't believe op bought 900 BTC's in the early days as they said, however, if op has lost their recovery phrase, then there is no way they can recover their lost coins. Do not fall for scammers who claim that they can recover lost or stolen BTC, it is only a way to steal more coins from the victim and inflict more misery on them.