I'm depressed and have no one to turn too.

[Loshi]

As the title says. I feel like my life is just mentally unstable and I have nothing going for me no matter how much I make or what I do. everything around me is falling apart. my mom relapsed over a year ago I moved away with my gram and my mom got raided not to long after I moved out I am lucky when I did or I would've been charged along side her and everyone she was bringing around. this is my first Christmas without her and she never try's to contact me her only son and I am beyond heart broken the only woman I cared for doesn't care for me anymore. another mentally turning thing is me thinking about how I 22 am 3 years away from being 25 the age my mother had me had and I feel like if I don't find a partner and have a family around this age I feel like I am doing everything wrong   I was just recently talking to someone who is my Co worker of all people and we really had a thing going for each other and were starting to click more and more. then all the sudden after trying to make plans to take her out somewhere fancy she snaps and says sorry not today I open up her snapchat story few hours later to see she is out eating somewhere with another guy and pretty much lost it and removed her off everything. things at work are gonna be awkward now and I regret trying to talk to her now and gonna just avoid her even if she try's to come up and ask why I removed her. she knows why I removed her   legit shift prior another co worker was talking to me about how she was saying how I was cute etc and then next day pops up with someone else like what? I will never understand girls. and  I lived with a houseful of them(only guy in the family)

Took her out to a venue show and had her backstage because I am buddy's with the artist's and what not and helped out with the show a bit and I regret taking her out now. I feel used every single time and I never notice until afterwards and they move on to the next and I realized how much crap I put myself in mentally by even thinking I should try and get back to talking to girls I haven't had a real relationship in over 3 years  and the last one guess what I was playing step daddy. a experience I probably will never experience with my own blood.  

I just want life to feel normal for once.

[Ucy]

Always expect the worst from people so that If they treat you above your expectations you don't become disappointed or shocked or depressed. And if no one treats you below your expectations for the day, you end up having a nice or better day.
But make sure you combine this mindset with positive attitude when interacting with people so that you don't become what you are trying to prevent, which is, bad behaviors that make people depressed, disappointed, shocked, or not loved enough.

You always need a strong shield or probably what people see as thick skin that acts as shock absorber when something from outside hits you. The strong shield is developed by reading and believing in the Word of our CREATOR. The Word reveals who humans really are, why they do what they do and when they mask their true behaviors/intention, which could make you lose your guard and be successfully attacked. The Word will make you a better person, give you light, make your life better, help you to become more cautious and expect worst from people

[Atikva]

I just came back to this forum after years of not being on brother and I can tell you that the lowest of the lowest point in life can sometimes be the beginning of your new high! Depression is not a real illness just like Andrew Tate says. You’re sad? You’re unhappy? Sure, but do something to fix it and you’ll be better and fine! Good luck and happy holidays

[Loshi]

Always expect the worst from people so that If they treat you above your expectations you don't become disappointed or shocked or depressed. And if no one treats you below your expectations for the day, you end up having a nice or better day.
But make sure you combine this mindset with positive attitude when interacting with people so that you don't become what you are trying to prevent, which is, bad behaviors that make people depressed, disappointed, shocked, or not loved enough.

You always need a strong shield or probably what people see as thick skin that acts as shock absorber when something from outside hits you. The strong shield is developed by reading and believing in the Word of our CREATOR. The Word reveals who humans really are, why they do what they do and when they mask their true behaviors/intention, which could make you lose your guard and be successfully attacked. The Word will make you a better person, give you light, make your life better, help you to become more cautious and expect worst from people

thank you I will try and keep that in mind and expect the worst from people always now so I won't be disappointment  when it happens it happens and I can just go on I just hope one day I can actually give my mother a grandchild like she wants:/