It doesn't look like I ever got this tip. This tip blueballing is an unintended consequence of micropayments. I didn't expect a tip but now that it was implied I was about to receive one the disappointment has made my life is slightly worse for not getting it.
Consider yourself Boss'ed.
As for the OP, you're doing it now.
Interesting! So, what you're saying, the next time Boss is being himself, we should quote the OP of this thread.
Yes, most people don't genuinely take pleasure in knowing that people despise them...but to be fair not everyone is born into the same greenhouse.
Boss: Not sure if this is an honest request for insight or a way of seeing how well known you are after 250 posts, but I believe a clue to your predicament lies in this sentence:
"I find myself enjoying the adrenaline rush that comes from people despising me, and confrontation in general."
Not the thought itself, but the disregard behind the thought is what makes this self-fulfilling. Everyone enjoys an adrenaline rush, and for you to feel one here implies a lack of empathy (either you outwards, or outwards in). It's possible you may have been hurt quite severely to feel peace seeing it in others.