I am shocked you had no idea the difficulty was too high.
Or that mining would cause a power bill to get larger.
I also find it odd that your power company would cut you off for one late payment of only $75
I get the feeling there is more to that story that meets the eye.
Bottom line is you did not do your research before embarking on mining Bitcoin.
Had you spent 5 minutes doing a Google search before hand you could have saved your self some trouble.
So something tells me you have issues.
What i said above is rather strange behavior for a normal person.
Further more saying you have or might contemplate suicide in connection to this is odd.
Seems to me you were already mentally unstable and suffer from some issues you need to get looked at.
I suggest you forget about the Bitcoin stuff for the time being and seek help.
When you are in a better frame of mind then come back.. Bitcoin will still be here.
I say go find a Mental Health professional and tell them you want to talk.
No mental health worker would turn you down and finding someone to talk to can do wonders.
Suicide over Money or "Things" is foolish.. it's all pointless / meaningless garbage.
Don't let society fool you into thinking that shit important.. it's not.
If a kid makes his parents power bill higher then so what.. they can pay it.
Or if you are feeling guilty get a part time job and help pay off the money.
But it's only money and not much either.
Not worth a lot of drama over.
Life is a frame of mind.
Society is an idiot so don't let them bullshit you into getting your priorities fucked up.
Do what i do.. tell the world they are idiots
Why would i give two shits what any of them think of me ?
Some douche mouthed me off for making hamburgers in a restaurant before.
Am i suppose to be ashamed i worked a job ? LOL
Not bloody likely
Chasing Bitcoin because YOU WANT MONEY was your mistake.
You were out of your league..
I know because your failed to do what 99% of people do.. and that is Google search basic mining info.
Consider it Karma.
You tried to do what all the others do and that is latch onto Bitcoin
so it can make your REAL MONEY $$$
If you wee trying to be a "Supporter" you would have done more research before starting mining.
The quest for money huh ?
A lot of slit wrists over that shit
Then ?
All i say to you all is don't be so fucking dramatic.
Because trust me you don't know the levels of shock & despair life can hand you.
Just when you think no scenario in a human life could conceivably be worse you end up seeing
a new situation down the line that is far worse.. again & again.
I like to think of my life these days in comparison to World War 2.
If you were pretty much any where or anyone in any country on earth back then ?
LIFE WAS MISERABLE !
24+ million Russians died Millions of Jews were gassed & tortured.
Sailors were drowned by attacked Sea convoys..
Troops were gunned down taking 1 step out of the boat on D day.
People literally starved to death in the millions in Leningrad in Arctic temp's
Troops on both sides had to live in a rat infested dirt hole..
where they had to piss in it and could not even make a fire or it would give away their position.
It was common for them to sleep under a tank on the side of the road in dirt holes.
Posting on the internet life is rough is laughable.
Have a roof over your head ? Got food ?
Man up & get to work.. make something of yourself.
Want rough ?
Ever been homeless or lived in a bush ?
Toughen up.. get your shit together and get your game on.
If you need some mental help then just go out & get it.
Want money ?
Get smarter at getting it LOL
Want sympathy ?
You should probably look elsewhere.
