Going to be homeless in 19 days advice?

[caketbh]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

[dissident]

Get a US citizenship and come to South Dakota?  Where I'm at there's a labor shortage and studio apartments are cheap. You could easily make it around here.  I'm one of the most introverted people at my plant. They key is accepting yourself and focusing on your strengths and the positives in life.. and give up the meds.  You have to have discipline. Set goals and rewards and achieve those goals. Focus on personal growth, especially at a psychological level.  I do not connect that much with society either, but even that is all in your head. What you think is your reality, so focus on the things you wish to achieve, focus on the state of mind you want to have...

I can tell you all this but it will take years of personal development work and practice to "get it" .. you are still young and have your whole life ahead of you. Consider starting exercising. Get a pull up bar and a set of dumbbells and a bench, do some compound exercises like bench press, rows, and lots of pull ups. Deadlifts if you can get ahold of a barbell. Clean up your diet.. ditch the sugar. All these things will make you feel good and boost your confidence, and it becomes a self sustaining cycle.

The key is making performance improving habits and making them a permanent part of your life. We are creatures of habit programmed like monkeys to repeat past behaviors and get stuck in a routine.. it takes work to modify a routine.

[foxberg]

This thread has helped me in the past:
https://www.reddit.com/r/getdisciplined/comments/1q96b5/i_just_dont_care_about_myself/

[olushakes]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

Men this is really fucked up situation but would advise you just heed to the advise given by the above poster. With that being said, you really need to get your shit together. You still have enough of what life can offer at that age without any limitation. Drop those things and chart a new course for your life and I am sure you can still make the best of it.

[mindrust]

Seems like you don't have a purpose in life. That's the problem with most of the serial killers or drug addicts. They just simply don't care if they live or die so they gain bad habits eventually.

If you don't take the right steps at this very moment, you'll either end up as a drug addict or something worse. There are many ISIS members with EU/USA passports in the ME. Those people joined the terrorist camps because they had no lives in their native countries and ISIS gave them an ID.

Don't stay alone. Move with your mom and stay with your relatives until you figure things out. Losing a girlfriend at the age of 22 is nothing. Believe me. You'll find many more chicks in the future. There are many fish in the water.

Stop doing drugs, follow your mom (it is nothing to be ashamed of) and hope for the best.

I don't like to interact with people neither. I don't even like people. But I can fake it pretty well. You can try that too

[jonald_fyookball]

You got to get off the drugs... they sound like they are really messing you up.  Probably nothing else is going to work in your life until you handle that.  Tell yourself (with a sense of humor): "its the drugs stupid" 

[CryptosapienZA]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

Life is difficult. Why not move with your mother and work on completing your high school? Atleast you wont have to stress about the basics. With your grandfather and mother, there will always be shelter and food. This will make finishing school and the job hunting process a little easier. Annnnddddd man, stop abusing those pills and cigarettes. You are digging a deeper hole for yourself. You have enough to deal with. Where do you even get the money to smoke that much?

With regards to human interaction. It is not easy, even for me at my age. Try people with the same interests as you. I promise you are not as sketchy as they say you come across . All the best man, you can do this.

[pawel7777]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

That's rather odd that, from all the places, you chose bitcoin forum to ask for life advice. Hope this was not meant to be a prelude for the incoming begging for bitcoins.

If you seriously looking for advise - what actually happens when your mother moves out. What about the place you live now? Are you going to lose it? Where's your father?

ps it needs to be moved to off-top

[haroldtee]

My first advice? Stay off drugs cause they will never ever let you think straight until you discover all your life wasted one day and probably too late to retrieve. Secondly, discover yourself, plan your life, decide what you really wanna do and work towards achieving them. You can find someone little to start from but in life, if you don't experience some certain things, you won't learn some lessons. I was an extreme introvert before but I had to start learning how to interact, though it was very hard at first but gradually, i started getting good at it and you can do that too. read books that will help your life and trust me, never stop reading. I sure can't consider myself as an extrovert now, but at least I am somewhere before semi-introvert. i wish you best of luck mate and stay good. CHEERS!

[stefek99]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto.

You live in the first world country.

https://genesis.re/wiki#Homeless_experiment

I actually wanted to become homeless by design.

First thing on the shopping list - new laptop - so that battery lasts longer and I charge from battery pack.

Economy of being homeless doesn't add up so I'm still paying for the rent.

So much abundance everywhere, change your energy :

CONCRETE ADVICE: START RUNNING

- more oxygen
- more energy
- connecting with highly motivational people
- no cost involved (you already have some sort of shoes)

[shelly154]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

Your situation is worst but Dude you are just 22. More sacrifices and downs are yet to come this is life. Just calm down and fight with your situation. Don't suppose yourself helpless. Nobody could help you better rather than yourself. Just Skip smoking do well for your future dear.. Stand by your mother she needs the most.

[Farcoin12]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.
Been handing out resumes like a motherfker, but to no avail.I'm trying to get my shit together and finish my high school so i can study computer science next Jan. I've been abusing my adhd meds recently and going on 2-3 day coding binges where i won't stop until i'm finished or my mind/body won't let me stay awake any longer.
I'm terrifically terrible at human interaction, and all my life i have been told i come off as a sketchy person.I'm addicted to cigarettes, weigh 120lb and am 6ft tall (lankyaf). Essentially i will get eaten alive in a homeless shelter.
I know it sounds cliche but i do not connect with society, nor have i ever truly connected with anyone.Such words are easy to say, anyone can say them but it is truly so for me.I feel as if from birth our minds are black boxes. Through our brains development we create rules/standards or "metaphorical bridges" to connect with others or to be connected to.And it all just went over my head.
Don't really know what i'm looking for in all this,
I have no idea what i am wanting to achieve in this post, i guess advice from an older person?or to know others feel as disconnected as i do?or a dank meme? I guess it makes no difference, feels good to release some stress.
Internet's the only place I've ever actually felt human.

Wow. You are in a really shit situation huh? Just remember that you have to be strong and don't be afraid to take risks. Otherwise you will be homeless for the rest of your life.

[stefek99]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto.

You live in the first world country.

https://genesis.re/wiki#Homeless_experiment

I actually wanted to become homeless by design.

First thing on the shopping list - new laptop - so that battery lasts longer and I charge from battery pack.

Economy of being homeless doesn't add up so I'm still paying for the rent.

So much abundance everywhere, change your energy :

CONCRETE ADVICE: START RUNNING

- more oxygen
- more energy
- connecting with highly motivational people
- no cost involved (you already have some sort of shoes)

Another one - overcome social anxiety - Google "Sasha Daygame" - he is freaking amazing...

[scribbles]

Go to a shelter, don't stay on the streets. Unless you have a car.

I lived on the streets for a few months (FOR RESEARCH) and although shitty as shit, everything beats staying outside.

Lastly, get out ASAP because living on the streets changes you much like brainwashing. I mean it, holy shit I mean it, you WILL change in a matter of weeks, and before you know it you can't get out anymore because 'the street' is something inside of you now.

Just my two cents, but from experience!

[coolstory]

Oh man, I respect your idead. Young buddy, try to hold on. If you master computer sciences, you get good money to maintain your life.

[caketbh]

Seems like you don't have a purpose in life.

I do have a purpose, it's to design true artificial intelligence.

[High Plains Drifter]

  I lost my job recently and do some of those paid medical studies to help pay the bills.  Some people make a living going all over the country doing those studies.  I've never had a bad experience, but like the others said: stop smoking, don't do drugs, stay clean no matter what.  Drugs and alcohol never help anything.  Stay away from energy drinks because that just makes your anxiety worse.
  Like one of the other guys said, exercise.  If you wear your body out, your mind will settle down to.
  Lastly, I've noticed recently that craigslist has good jobs available.  Check it out and good luck  

[daronch]

Pretty much, i'm a 22 Year Old Canadian  that lives in Toronto. I was dating a girl for a year then things broke off, moved back in to my mothers.Shes moving across the country in 19 days,to help my grandfather since my grams passed away.

Try to get a job, any job.

In the meantime, to find a place to stay, you can try looking at https://www.couchsurfing.com, a site where people share their homes with strangers.

Or you can try airbnb.com for paid but cheaper accommodation.

[babsalt1975]

This sounds like a desperate situation but personally I feel it has not reached a stage of desperation yet. All you are thinking about is just in your minds. It seems the drugs have taken you hostage that you can not think positively any more. Life is not anyway easy but somehow you can manage if you have the right mind. Get off the drugs and start thinking about life, your future and your family. You are lucky you are leaving in Canada where other like us leaving in poor countries would admire to live. Why would people migrate from their home countries and come to Canada to leave a decent life than you who was born and raised their? What do they have that is more important than yours for them to earn a living when you are homeless - in your home country?. Think about this and seek the guidance of a professional counselor to help you go back to a decent life.

[2bfree]

Go work on one of those farms where you get like paid plus free board. Farm is the first thing to come to mind but try others like oil righs or something I'm sure there is other like Cruise lines. Find something where you get free room and board then take all your profits invest in Crypto till you have enough then you can start over.

And eat healthy no Sugar (or the devil sugar - aspartame) and more nutrients (no gmo) that will help your spirit, most people put the devil in the body it destroys their lives, put good things in.

Focus and make goals and have dreams. Life is great when yoe can wake up each morning with something to look forward to!

I hope this helps good luck!