Psychological problems due to Crypto.

[nessesthelle]

It all started while watching a random ad, about the Price of bitcoin. Then I remembered that many years ago my cousin told me to invest in Bitcoin, but I did not listen, I had the loser mindset at the time.
As I read the ad I struggled to stand up. I grew dizzy, almost fainting. I laid in the bed and cried. I cried for several hours, to relieve the pressure inside my head. I am an agnostic but at that night I believed in God, praying to Him (or her) to give me a second chance. And I was hating myself, hating my entire life, of what a lazy worthless fool I was.
It was ironic because at that night, even though I started to believe in God, it was my belief in God which made me no longer believe Determinism. The idea we have "fates" or that our destiny is predestined, is what some religious people claim proves God. But at that moment I realized we live in a cold, hollow universe, and that I had no "fate", nothing I did in my life was meant to happen. All of my life was meaningless, because of my choices I am simply in a bad world, and that our world is bad because of everyone else's choices. All of us have to make a choice and that doesn't mean our choices will lead to a good or predestined outcome, there is no regulator of our choices and sometimes we receive fates that are not part of some "grand plan" to get us all to Heaven.

So at that time I made a resolution never to be a sop again, that I would get my life on track and start heavily investing and obsessing over money. However now that I am in the cryptogame I have noticed my sanity taking a steady turn for the worst.

I can no longer enjoy videogames, or watching movies, anything that doesn't have to do with making money feels like a waste of time. I view human beings as sheep and children, who don't understand the most important thing is to make money. I work over 12 hours a day doing nothing but related to money.

It is a bit like that Whataboutbob movie, where I start out as a sane and wise psychiatrist, while I steadily go down a road of insanity compared to those around me. That is what it feels like. It feels like nothing I do is ever enough. It feels like I can never catch up to the train.  It feels like there are 20 or more trains around me, and the moment I try to board one train I realize I missed another. And I try to research but I realize every minute I spend on research I am losing money investing in another coin.
And although the trolls have told me a couple good coins, I feel like it is not enough. Because I feel like Oscar Shindler saying "I could have saved more." I keep thinking that I could have invested in the crypto game a few months earlier and that I would be rich. Now I am getting paranoid there is no more hope in crypto, with all these BS government regulations I wonder if there will ever even be a future for crypto or will it be banned altogether, the moment I get in. I wonder if my consciousness is the same as everyone else, and that I am not special, because I am linked to everyone else's consciousness and now everybody's trying to get in, not just me, and maybe because I am not special I am a worthless person.

And then I think about how I spent $300 on shitcoins, hoping I will be a millionaire and waiting for the coins to take off, but nothing happening and dev's being behind schedule. And this stresses me out to no end, I just sit and look at these coins and there aren't even buyers of these coins so I can't get my money back. And then I think about all the coins that I did buy, but only bought $100 or $50 of each, and I watch powerlessly locked to my chair as they are mooning. I feel like Oscar Schindler where "I could have saved more, I could have saved more". I think about all the junk I bought in my lifetime that I never use, that I could have put towards crypto. I think about all the coins I don't know about, that are mooning and I will miss out on the profits until it is too late. I think about all the endless hours of research still not being enough, I think about all the times I ignored my psychic powers and gut instinct and lost out on money, I think about taking out money from the coins I believed in, just to put them into other good coins and balance out the risk, even though I believed in both coins. I think about how my IRA is stuck and they wont allow me to cash it and put into crypto. It is all so stressful for me and even though I am not losing money, I feel so terrible and paranoid because I know I am losing out on future riches. I have only put $1500 into crypto but I know I could put so much more, if I just had a decent job which I don't.
And then there's all these free airdrops, there are so many I can't even track them all, and they make you go through so much effort to sign up, sometimes I get paranoid and say "Will they correctly register me as an airdrop? Or will they not like my facebook because I don't have many friends, or will they not like my twitter because I don't have many followers. Will all the airdrops go through? Will I catch all the airdrops before they expire?" And the fact I already have successful airdrops is not enough. For instance, one airdrop I was late to and so I only got 1 coin, when everyone else got 100 coins. And it keeps looping in my mind, had I only been a week faster I could have got 100 coins which=$500. And the more I think about it the more sick I become.
It feels like chasing and chasing, a bunch of trains I can never catch, I see posts where people have $10,000 savings to invest, meanwhile my IRAs are locked up and I can't invest, makes me lose my mind. My thoughts are racing and I dream of crypto. But it's still not enough. I never have enough time to research or sign up for all the free airdrops. I get paranoid my friends won't support my referals to the airdrops either. And even though I have invested in several coins which are mooning, I feel like I did not invest enough. And then I think about all the failed coins I bought, which I could have put more into the mooning coins, and I say why did I not simply do this, makes me lose my mind into a downward spiral. Some days I go to bed and I say, man life sucks, I am broke, have no car, live in a trailer, only way people will like me if I am rich, only way I will enjoy a utopia is if I am rich, but it is so much work to be rich, it would be easier if I just was never born.


Basically, this movie started me on my steady descent towards insanity.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmtUuosWe4Q

Agree with the most of comments, saying, that you must have had this issue before and it's not connected with crypto. The same issue might happen to you, if you'd be a videogame sportsman)

[Lecam]

I had the same situation before, I have known bitcoin when it was cheap and recently checked the price and was very shocked. I really think that you just really took it really hard that you missed the opportunity to become rich. I really think that you need to seek professional help because what you are experiencing is not really due to bitcoin. Maybe you are just too stressed because of pressure that you want to catch up because you missed a great opportunity before.

Just to add, it's never to late to get in to crypto, whenever you invest never think that you're late and don't rush your self. Those who earned a lot due to crypto are those who are really patient. There's always great reward for patience.

[aervin11]

I feel you man. I am also on the same situation as you but what we have in difference is Im a newbie like I just know about bitcoin since I have made this btt account. I feel the same struggles as you. At the moment I have no idea on how to get out in this kind of situation so more probably I would watch the video you referred. I would love to see your future post on how you can/would improve in the next few months or maybe a year from now. We can be HEROES. I will also try to improve this lifestyle of mine so I can also share my story. KUDOS!

[aervin11]

Just to add, it's never to late to get in to crypto, whenever you invest never think that you're late and don't rush your self. Those who earned a lot due to crypto are those who are really patient. There's always great reward for patience.

Patience is a talent I must say, but having the dilemma over locking-on profits or hitting home runs which is holding a coin until it worth millions of $$. It's so damn hard. Anyways, HODLers wont lose.

[Opurum]

It all started while watching a random ad, about the Price of bitcoin. Then I remembered that many years ago my cousin told me to invest in Bitcoin, but I did not listen, I had the loser mindset at the time.
As I read the ad I struggled to stand up. I grew dizzy, almost fainting. I laid in the bed and cried. I cried for several hours, to relieve the pressure inside my head. I am an agnostic but at that night I believed in God, praying to Him (or her) to give me a second chance. And I was hating myself, hating my entire life, of what a lazy worthless fool I was.
It was ironic because at that night, even though I started to believe in God, it was my belief in God which made me no longer believe Determinism. The idea we have "fates" or that our destiny is predestined, is what some religious people claim proves God. But at that moment I realized we live in a cold, hollow universe, and that I had no "fate", nothing I did in my life was meant to happen. All of my life was meaningless, because of my choices I am simply in a bad world, and that our world is bad because of everyone else's choices. All of us have to make a choice and that doesn't mean our choices will lead to a good or predestined outcome, there is no regulator of our choices and sometimes we receive fates that are not part of some "grand plan" to get us all to Heaven.

So at that time I made a resolution never to be a sop again, that I would get my life on track and start heavily investing and obsessing over money. However now that I am in the cryptogame I have noticed my sanity taking a steady turn for the worst.

I can no longer enjoy videogames, or watching movies, anything that doesn't have to do with making money feels like a waste of time. I view human beings as sheep and children, who don't understand the most important thing is to make money. I work over 12 hours a day doing nothing but related to money.

It is a bit like that Whataboutbob movie, where I start out as a sane and wise psychiatrist, while I steadily go down a road of insanity compared to those around me. That is what it feels like. It feels like nothing I do is ever enough. It feels like I can never catch up to the train.  It feels like there are 20 or more trains around me, and the moment I try to board one train I realize I missed another. And I try to research but I realize every minute I spend on research I am losing money investing in another coin.
And although the trolls have told me a couple good coins, I feel like it is not enough. Because I feel like Oscar Shindler saying "I could have saved more." I keep thinking that I could have invested in the crypto game a few months earlier and that I would be rich. Now I am getting paranoid there is no more hope in crypto, with all these BS government regulations I wonder if there will ever even be a future for crypto or will it be banned altogether, the moment I get in. I wonder if my consciousness is the same as everyone else, and that I am not special, because I am linked to everyone else's consciousness and now everybody's trying to get in, not just me, and maybe because I am not special I am a worthless person.

And then I think about how I spent $300 on shitcoins, hoping I will be a millionaire and waiting for the coins to take off, but nothing happening and dev's being behind schedule. And this stresses me out to no end, I just sit and look at these coins and there aren't even buyers of these coins so I can't get my money back. And then I think about all the coins that I did buy, but only bought $100 or $50 of each, and I watch powerlessly locked to my chair as they are mooning. I feel like Oscar Schindler where "I could have saved more, I could have saved more". I think about all the junk I bought in my lifetime that I never use, that I could have put towards crypto. I think about all the coins I don't know about, that are mooning and I will miss out on the profits until it is too late. I think about all the endless hours of research still not being enough, I think about all the times I ignored my psychic powers and gut instinct and lost out on money, I think about taking out money from the coins I believed in, just to put them into other good coins and balance out the risk, even though I believed in both coins. I think about how my IRA is stuck and they wont allow me to cash it and put into crypto. It is all so stressful for me and even though I am not losing money, I feel so terrible and paranoid because I know I am losing out on future riches. I have only put $1500 into crypto but I know I could put so much more, if I just had a decent job which I don't.
And then there's all these free airdrops, there are so many I can't even track them all, and they make you go through so much effort to sign up, sometimes I get paranoid and say "Will they correctly register me as an airdrop? Or will they not like my facebook because I don't have many friends, or will they not like my twitter because I don't have many followers. Will all the airdrops go through? Will I catch all the airdrops before they expire?" And the fact I already have successful airdrops is not enough. For instance, one airdrop I was late to and so I only got 1 coin, when everyone else got 100 coins. And it keeps looping in my mind, had I only been a week faster I could have got 100 coins which=$500. And the more I think about it the more sick I become.
It feels like chasing and chasing, a bunch of trains I can never catch, I see posts where people have $10,000 savings to invest, meanwhile my IRAs are locked up and I can't invest, makes me lose my mind. My thoughts are racing and I dream of crypto. But it's still not enough. I never have enough time to research or sign up for all the free airdrops. I get paranoid my friends won't support my referals to the airdrops either. And even though I have invested in several coins which are mooning, I feel like I did not invest enough. And then I think about all the failed coins I bought, which I could have put more into the mooning coins, and I say why did I not simply do this, makes me lose my mind into a downward spiral. Some days I go to bed and I say, man life sucks, I am broke, have no car, live in a trailer, only way people will like me if I am rich, only way I will enjoy a utopia is if I am rich, but it is so much work to be rich, it would be easier if I just was never born.


Basically, this movie started me on my steady descent towards insanity.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmtUuosWe4Q

Agree with the most of comments, saying, that you must have had this issue before and it's not connected with crypto. The same issue might happen to you, if you'd be a videogame sportsman)

There's so much of my own story in your story, dude. You are not alone. We are all hoping for the best.

[Dragon5]

I understand your sorrow, but is it really worth crying so much? Thanks God, you've never thought of a lottery ticket, which you probably could have bought)) We cannot catch all the chances. Who knows, where to lose, where to gain.

[cakmabokgot]

Hey! I think you can use crypto to face your problems inside and try to cope with them.
I understand what you experience is really hard...
I have been diagnosed with bipolar-I disorder 4 years ago.
Had job/family/relationship problems for years. Bipolar disorder includes anxiety too...
I was always impatient, impulsive and anxious.

And I jumped into the crypto world. Everything started falling apart again. I wasn't able to sleep, started losing money, anxiety, impulsive sell/buy.
Then I talked to my doc, asked if I should quit. He encouraged me to trade more, read more and use crypto to help cure myself.
It was hard first weeks... But then I found myself getting patient... I can lose or I can win, but life continues and things are going to be just fine...
Now I am calm and hopeful (even for the last 3 weeks)
You sometimes have to push yourself... I know it's hard, but you can do it!
Just hodl yourself and your coins

[Future3000]

It influences people as well as any other kind of illusion of easy money. Like casino I'd say. But it's not, it's investments and people should consider risks seriously.
I feel sorry about you and I hope you are ok now, don't worry, everything will be fine, just don't try to get everything at once

[Getcoinsite]

Guy, your psychological problems are not due to crypto. They have always been there.. Before you were in crypto you were lazy, did nothing and didn't care about yourself. This is depression and that leads to other mental illnesses.

You need to go talk to a professional and work together to find medication that will help. With the right meds you'll think and act like a normal person. Life will be much easier to cope with.

Good luck.

right on this one mate,seems like they blaming the crypto for what had they having now when the truth is they are mentally emotional and what youve said is true that it was a depression..

And reading such long story looks like this guys are a frustraded writers and maybe best for editing for just checking how accurate they delivered each post

[stantpro]

Your psychological problem show that one has to always seize any opportunity
that comes your way.Especially, when you notice that the human traffic in that
opportunity is becoming astronomical, then know that there must be something
impacting and benefiting involved.We have to never sit on the fence when people
or friends are plunging into opportunities.Though we should make some calculated
analysis, we have to get involved.

[Shamie1002]

Guy, your psychological problems are not due to crypto. They have always been there.. Before you were in crypto you were lazy, did nothing and didn't care about yourself. This is depression and that leads to other mental illnesses.

You need to go talk to a professional and work together to find medication that will help. With the right meds you'll think and act like a normal person. Life will be much easier to cope with.

Good luck.

I agree and it should not be blamed in cryptos. Depressions can occurs pertaining to anything. The thing is you just happen to see great potential, got obsessed with it, had losses and worried too much.
It's really up to your ability in handling such situations.

Hopefully,  you can lessen your stress not just in cryptos but in other things too.

[joromz1226]

Bro, as you could have imagined already, your thread is so long that it took me a good while reading it all and understanding it.
Let me tell you something
In the first place, what we call life, is insecure, so insecure, that by tomorrow you can´t know for certain that you will wake up or not (no matter if you live in the safest place in the world, or the most dangerous).
Once you are conscious about that, you will understand that even the richest person on Earth (what you call rich, and socially accepted,) can die by tomorow, which at the end makes you no different than him, except the buying power.

Nope I can be sure I will wake up tommorow because I have psychic power to predict the future. Now you may say, why am I not a millionaire if I can predict the future? Well I cannot predict the future exactly, only generally. Also because, I squandered most of my life being lazy and doing nothing, now I am catching up Scrambling like the rebel alliance while the Death Star approaches my planet in half an hour.

I have asked God to kill me in my sleep so I wouldn't have to endure another day of misery. But deep down with my psychic power I knew that I would wake up in the morning, that is how I know with my psychic power I will wake up tommorow.

I have also thought about how the only difference between me and the rich is their money. I have also thought that death is the great equalizer, we are all the same in the end. However then I realize that me being rich is the only way to save society. I turn on the news and see all the facism and I say, me being rich I can save the planet. Or I can die poor and save nobody and have a miserable life. So I feel like I am leading an epic battle to create a utopia to be rich, and the health of all minds depends on me being rich.

As I can see with your experience before you get involve in crytpo you are already lazy, right?
Then you just said you can predict the future and not exactly what it could be happen, you said that. meaning it shows your prediction is not precise still there's a bit doubt in your mind why you didn't buy and hold some of bitcoin. Therefore, you really not a true psychic for me.

[gates]

Dude, your problem is familiar to everyone, who ever dealt with crypto currency. When you understand how much many you can get from this, "making money" process gets the most important sense. We should never forget, crypto money is easy to get and easy to loose as well. And when you look at life in general, you see that there are bigger values, like family, closed friends, self development, love, health.

[albos]

Please see a psychotherapist as soon as possible.

[Salivan]

OP you should understand that many so called early adopters (maybe most) aren't really so rich. No matter on what shitloads of  coins  they sit  initially.
In order  to  be rich  you  need  to put  into  risk almost all of  what  you  have(in terms of  fiat),  for a  certain period  of  time. No matter  what  kind of an investment. Just count persons  you  know, able  to  do  that.  How many  of  them  are so bold or  reckless, I ensure  you  not  many

[akishang]

I don't know if its a psychological problem but I always think about the coins I was selling so I ended up staring at my screen most of the time. I was also curious with the alts price so I'm always checking it. My husband says to at least do something rather than just staring at my screen. Whenever we talked, there will always be a topic about cryptos. He's interested on it so he's okay. I think I'm not in the psychological problem path but if I continue maybe it can have an effect on my life. I'll try not to think about it, or may it will pass.

[Hedda Gabler]

There's so much of my own story in your story, dude. You are not alone. We are all hoping for the best.

[gentlemand]

I can no longer enjoy videogames, or watching movies, anything that doesn't have to do with making money feels like a waste of time. I view human beings as sheep and children, who don't understand the most important thing is to make money. I work over 12 hours a day doing nothing but related to money.

Having a reread of this thread, this stands out to me.

For a bit at the start of the year I had a substantial amount of paper wealth, not that I really planned to touch it until 2020.

I had a mull over what it meant. That money did not make me more - sexy, friendly, intelligent, healthy, happy, successful.

All it was was more money. It removes more worry and provides more opportunity of course, nothing much else springs to mind.

[rugrats]

Just to add, it's never to late to get in to crypto, whenever you invest never think that you're late and don't rush your self. Those who earned a lot due to crypto are those who are really patient. There's always great reward for patience.

Patience is a talent I must say, but having the dilemma over locking-on profits or hitting home runs which is holding a coin until it worth millions of $$. It's so damn hard. Anyways, HODLers wont lose.

'HODLers won't lose' is my motto too in order to keep my psychologically sane, plus small spread across some altcoins. But this business can be depriving others in many ways, some costing their sanity... so keep calm and going