Need 0.04 BTC for medication

[JonathanMyers]

I made two loan threads before, my first thread was stupid but my second thread i wanted to help myself. Therefore i am saving up to get myself medication on Silk Road. It's basically Klonopin that i need, for my anxiety and OCD too. It's pricey but it's worth all my bitcoins. I just need 0.04 more bitcoins to add to my current Silk Road balance.

Now i would ask the lending thread again, but i know i can't pay back. Because i am not a scammer, so i thought i would ask here instead for the help i need. I received lots of messages about helping myself and doing this and that. I really appreciate the messages, but i STILL need those meds. It helps me and i have used it before, it worked, so i am not getting myself into some slippery slope.

If anyone cares to help, thank you.


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[Nigeria Prince]

I will pay you 0.10btc to see a psychiatrist.

[monbux]

Nope.  Sorry, I dun know if you are joey, but you are just as bad. :/  How pricey is it?

[JonathanMyers]

Nope.  Sorry, I dun know if you are joey, but you are just as bad. :/  How pricey is it?

$30, i currently have $26 that i sent into my wallet. I just need 0.04 more.

[JonathanMyers]

I will pay you 0.10btc to see a psychiatrist.

you must be joking

[monbux]

I will pay you 0.10btc to see a psychiatrist.

you must be joking

YOU must be joking.

[JonathanMyers]

I will pay you 0.10btc to see a psychiatrist.

you must be joking

YOU must be joking.

I'm not joking monbux, if i was i wouldn't have made this topic in the first place. I need 0.04 and then i'm in peace. No need to clarify anything else.

[Magazine]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

[JonathanMyers]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

17 tbh, i know it's wrong man and it's been said a million times already. But i really need these pills, sooner or later maybe i'll get a prescription for them but for now i just want to buy them. Maybe after this i'll see a psychiatrist if i had the money.

[monbux]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

17 tbh, i know it's wrong man and it's been said a million times already. But i really need these pills, sooner or later maybe i'll get a prescription for them but for now i just want to buy them. Maybe after this i'll see a psychiatrist if i had the money.

lol it's wrong...  Are you sure you are't joey? 

[youbob]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

17 tbh, i know it's wrong man and it's been said a million times already. But i really need these pills, sooner or later maybe i'll get a prescription for them but for now i just want to buy them. Maybe after this i'll see a psychiatrist if i had the money.

Really? What type of pills are you talking about? Narcotics I'm thinking of? Look! no one Here is going to help you buy your pills, not when there are way too many possibilities this could be illegal drugs. It's morally wrong for someone here giving money to support your drug habits(if that's the secret case here).  

To make my point clear no one should give you money for your medication due to the known risk, and knowing that the actions of helping you out could be aiding your drug problem, to which I find it to be a moral conflict.  

[JonathanMyers]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

17 tbh, i know it's wrong man and it's been said a million times already. But i really need these pills, sooner or later maybe i'll get a prescription for them but for now i just want to buy them. Maybe after this i'll see a psychiatrist if i had the money.

Really? What type of pills are you talking about? Narcotics I'm thinking of? Look! no one Here is going to help you buy your pills, not when there are way too many possibilities this could be illegal drugs. It's morally wrong for someone here giving money to support your drug habits(if that's the secret case here).  

To make my point clear no one should give you money for your medication due to the known risk, and knowing that the actions of helping you out could be aiding your drug problem, to which I find it to be a moral conflict.  

Klonopin like i said in my post if you read it, i am using it to help my anxiety and OCD. I don't take it everyday, in fact it's been 2 months since i last took it. It's painful dealing with the withdrawals. It's been getting worse too, damn.

[youbob]

Klonopin like i said in my post if you read it, i am using it to help my anxiety and OCD. I don't take it everyday, in fact it's been 2 months since i last took it. It's painful dealing with the withdrawals. It's been getting worse too, damn.

So why can't you just go to a Doc in-a-box office and just get them like everyone else? If someone were to give you money for your pills where would you get them from? Off the streets?

[MRKLYE]

Aren't you a minor, giving a kid money to buy drugs is just wrong.

17 tbh, i know it's wrong man and it's been said a million times already. But i really need these pills, sooner or later maybe i'll get a prescription for them but for now i just want to buy them. Maybe after this i'll see a psychiatrist if i had the money.

Shove the fuck off. You need to go see a doctor and get this prescribed to you. Man up, Go see a doctor and they will give you something for your your "OCD and anxiety". You're 17 years old, How about you stop taking drugs and fucking up your brain, go get a job, and then be able to support your addiction to shitty pharmaceuticals.

[Magazine]

Also OP get off the computer, sitting in front of the PC all day begging for 4 Bucks isn't helping you mentally go outside and breathe fresh air and go for a run or something you will feel so much more better than popping pills.

[MRKLYE]

Also OP get off the computer, sitting in front of the PC all day begging for 4 Bucks isn't helping you mentally go outside and breathe fresh air and go for a run or something you will feel so much more better than popping pills.

Well said.

[r3wt]

Take it from someone who is a formerly diagnosed with GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder),Somiphobia(The fear of dying in your sleep) Anxiety related dissociative convulsions(non epileptic seizures),  and is a former user of anxiety drugs such as Hydroxizine, alprazolam, clonazepam, Neurotin, Ativan, chlordiazepoxide, and last but not least, diazepam. You do not want to go down the road of treating your anxiety problems with drugs, as great as they are it comes at a cost, i will get to that later. I would like to tell you my story of how i got this way.

I was 15 years old, living in a quiet middle class residential area in rural arkansas. at the end of our subdivision was a movie store, called movie gallery. it was about 9 pm on a thursday and my mom sent me off to return some movies to the video store. there was a little shortcut behind the strip mall where the video store where the neighborhood kids would ride there bikes through up to the back area behind the strip mall where we would skateboard hang out and ride bikes etc. in between the houses and this strip mall was a small drainage creek leading into the sewer, and a little ramp was fashioned out of ply wood and bricks and we would jump this little "creek" to the back parking lot of the strip mall. i hit the ramp with the movie in one hand and my hand on the other. when i landed, i lost control and face planted and the handle bars hit me right in the ribs, and unknown to me at the time my ribs were broken and my lung was punctured from the backside. i woke up in the hospital the next day and after a few weeks they sent me home. all good. a few weeks later at school i couldn't breath and passed out at school. turns out i had developed an infection in my lung(pneumonia, or so they thought) and needed antibiotics. i was prescribed cefuroxime and never got better. our family doctor advised us to visit a lung specialist, who referred us to his friend who although an ENT(Ear, Nose, Throat Doctor) he specialized in lower respiritory infections. this doctor prescribed me a last resort antibiotic, flouroqolinone and this is where my nightmare began. just a day or two after starting the antibiotic, i began having convulsions and nightmares, and became extremely paranoid. by day 12 of treatment i was no longer able to leave the bed, i was paralyzed in fear. no one believes me, but my heart stopped beating in the middle of the night. i woke up for a breif second and attempted to scream for help but i couldn't make a sound and i tried to beat on the wall but i couldn't move my hands, i started panicking and strained to pick myself up off the bed and somehow my heart started making this twisting motion and my body was shaking and i snapped out of it. no one ever believed me, however i was unable to sleep so the doctor diagnosed me with somniphobia, the fear of sleeping. being a minor i was prescribed hydroxizine. drug after drug they tried on me. eventually they got me on a doze of diazepam in the day for convulsions, and alprazolam at night so i could sleep. this worked great for about 6 weeks and the doctor let me know that it was time for my medications to be pulled. he pulled me off diazepam and halfed my dosage of xanax to .5 mg twice daily and slowly tapered me off. i can't tell you how bad my life was for an entire year after quitting the meds. my life was literally hell. i couldn't even walk into a store or anything without shaking in fear.

 I still get convulsions when i'm nervous and i still have the heart palpitations and fear that i will laydown and go to sleep and never wake up, but the doctor got me off of the medicine and into a councelor who was able to coach me through facing my fears, and i am much better off, anxiety be damned than i ever was before.

if you continue to let the fear rule over you and reduce yourself to a life of xanax or other anxiety medication use you will live your life standing still, and i doubt you really want that.

[sublime5447]

OP eat a tasty butthole. God pay for you drugs like everyone else.

[Magazine]

Take it from someone who is a formerly diagnosed with GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder),Somiphobia(The fear of dying in your sleep) Anxiety related dissociative convulsions(non epileptic seizures),  and is a former user of anxiety drugs such as Hydroxizine, alprazolam, clonazepam, Neurotin, Ativan, chlordiazepoxide, and last but not least, diazepam. You do not want to go down the road of treating your anxiety problems with drugs, as great as they are it comes at a cost, i will get to that later. I would like to tell you my story of how i got this way.

I was 15 years old, living in a quiet middle class residential area in rural arkansas. at the end of our subdivision was a movie store, called movie gallery. it was about 9 pm on a thursday and my mom sent me off to return some movies to the video store. there was a little shortcut behind the strip mall where the video store where the neighborhood kids would ride there bikes through up to the back area behind the strip mall where we would skateboard hang out and ride bikes etc. in between the houses and this strip mall was a small drainage creek leading into the sewer, and a little ramp was fashioned out of ply wood and bricks and we would jump this little "creek" to the back parking lot of the strip mall. i hit the ramp with the movie in one hand and my hand on the other. when i landed, i lost control and face planted and the handle bars hit me right in the ribs, and unknown to me at the time my ribs were broken and my lung was punctured from the backside. i woke up in the hospital the next day and after a few weeks they sent me home. all good. a few weeks later at school i couldn't breath and passed out at school. turns out i had developed an infection in my lung(pneumonia, or so they thought) and needed antibiotics. i was prescribed cefuroxime and never got better. our family doctor advised us to visit a lung specialist, who referred us to his friend who although an ENT(Ear, Nose, Throat Doctor) he specialized in lower respiritory infections. this doctor prescribed me a last resort antibiotic, flouroqolinone and this is where my nightmare began. just a day or two after starting the antibiotic, i began having convulsions and nightmares, and became extremely paranoid. by day 12 of treatment i was no longer able to leave the bed, i was paralyzed in fear. no one believes me, but my heart stopped beating in the middle of the night. i woke up for a breif second and attempted to scream for help but i couldn't make a sound and i tried to beat on the wall but i couldn't move my hands, i started panicking and strained to pick myself up off the bed and somehow my heart started making this twisting motion and my body was shaking and i snapped out of it. no one ever believed me, however i was unable to sleep so the doctor diagnosed me with somniphobia, the fear of sleeping. being a minor i was prescribed hydroxizine. drug after drug they tried on me. eventually they got me on a doze of diazepam in the day for convulsions, and alprazolam at night so i could sleep. this worked great for about 6 weeks and the doctor let me know that it was time for my medications to be pulled. he pulled me off diazepam and halfed my dosage of xanax to .5 mg twice daily and slowly tapered me off. i can't tell you how bad my life was for an entire year after quitting the meds. my life was literally hell. i couldn't even walk into a store or anything without shaking in fear.

 I still get convulsions when i'm nervous and i still have the heart palpitations and fear that i will laydown and go to sleep and never wake up, but the doctor got me off of the medicine and into a councelor who was able to coach me through facing my fears, and i am much better off, anxiety be damned than i ever was before.

if you continue to let the fear rule over you and reduce yourself to a life of xanax or other anxiety medication use you will live your life standing still, and i doubt you really want that.

Wow man, that's scary.

[JonathanMyers]

It's not like I'm addicted or anything. I understand the risks but I don't have an addictive personality. I can control myself. I can't get a prescription because in don't want my family see me take meds. Can someone please help me??