You open this topic for a loan as quite a newbie.
I dó offer you a trade. With or without Escrow, thats fine for me.
But you ask me to send first or to arrange an escrow myself just to help you out.
In my opinion, if someone offers this to you, like I do and did before on a 1:1 base
https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=2912610.0 you are the one who has to find an escrow or offer to send first.
Especially with a payment method like Paypal which, even if you send first will still not be safe for me. You can reverse it.
Try LBC.
Not interested anymore.