Is it wrong to end your life even though it will hurt those who somehow happen to value you?
It ain't wrong to take your life. It's actually better that being taken by others. You are responsible of other's feeling that is why you have to prepare them. I think of suicide a lot lately , most of the time when the effects of drugs are wearing off, but the most horrific times are when waking up after a heavy drinking night, completely unaware of what happened the past night, I keep seeing myself jumping of my balcony , cutting myself , sometimes devil faces hallucinations
(even if i'm atheist) , But then i think why would i do that , why would i end my life , why would i shut down my brain , why would i stop talking to my friends , why would i stop having fun , and simply shut down myself. I don't believe in afterlife or shit like this so this won't make it easier it would just stop , everything . Even if I would of been worthless , after this i would of became even more so. I would be food for the worms.
So bro your entire life , every happening , every color , every conversation , every substance you had contact with in you life "programed" your brain and your genes in a way that is UNIQUE to you, don't destroy it , use them , and pass them on. Take your friends and talk your problems with them ,( if you think that your problems aren't to be talked with them then they aren't real friends ) and resolve them using your uniqueness.
Don't go to shrinks unless you want to get drugged , otherwise they will sound like imbeciles , they use drugs to "soften" your brain and make it more receptive to their "advice" . This might help but in the long run it might makes things worse because at some point you have to quit both the meds and the nice shrink stories and talking . You've done the best thing so far you acknowledged that you might have a problem , now you can resolve it and you are the only one who actually can.
SO . It ain't wrong but it's a waste . Is waste wrong? No but still WASTE.