I don't remember what user stats look like but I think your profile in bpip.org is a good alternative if you want a quick snap on some of your stats like who you send merits the most and who are your top merit fans (merit senders), and your trust score. Here is a your profile
link in bpip.org, hope this helps ease up some anxiety you are feeling right now.
This is how the page looked like in case you might have forgotten. It was so detailed and would help guide on one's posting habits, favorite boards to post in, times the user is most active etc
I remember those days, late 2017. The forum loading speed would be so slow.