Can you read all of the other fucking comments? Clearly everyone on this site fucking hates science and is fucked up. They are all a bunch of fucked up pieces of shit. I do not have people in real life who I am comfortable talking to about this stuff. Sorry. I guess that I am stuck talking to you guys. Sorry.
It looks like there's room for improvement in terms of communication skills here. OP, is this your typical mode of communication in real life? If so, it's no wonder you don't have anyone to talk to; people are probably avoiding you.
Nonetheless, it's a positive step that you've started this discussion. However, this platform might not be the ideal place to learn those skills. Typically, communication skills are something one learns in elementary school or within their family. Anyway.. Let's work with where we are at the moment. I've heard there are communication skills courses designed for adults; perhaps you might consider exploring those. Although, it seems like you might have some other areas to work on as well... So, good luck!