Recovering gambling addict stories

[livingfree]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

[shasan]

Not just money they lose, but time and relationship. The other video that I saw that he was not even present with the delivery of his first and second kid, he was done gambling and trying to make money for the hospital bills but it turns out that he losses in both time.

When anyone loses money by gambling then the user has nothing to do if the user has no way to afford the loss. And in this case, it may cause several side effects. The user may fall into bad evil and it may turn into killing and also it may turn into suicide.

[Quidat]

Not just money they lose, but time and relationship. The other video that I saw that he was not even present with the delivery of his first and second kid, he was done gambling and trying to make money for the hospital bills but it turns out that he losses in both time.

When anyone loses money by gambling then the user has nothing to do if the user has no way to afford the loss. And in this case, it may cause several side effects. The user may fall into bad evil and it may turn into killing and also it may turn into suicide.

And this is something that should really be avoided in the first place. If you do find yourself not really that liking on losing money then gambling isnt for you and you are just that basically putting up
yourself on such huge risks specially if you are a type of person whose really that impulsive. Dont wait up for yourself to experience the worst before you would really be quitting up on gambling.
On the time that you had noticed that you are already losing up that big then it would be sensible that you should quit up already. Dont wait for things to become worst before you would really be doing such act and this is something that common for most people.

Recovery would really be that so hard but its not something that impossible.It is really just that a matter of self acceptance and and control towards your mind and emotion.
If you do want to quit then you should really be serious on doing so or else you would really be ending up on having that kind of disastrous condition.
This is why it would be always best that you should be wary with your actions.

[Silberman]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

Sometimes I watch documentaries and stories like that in order to remind myself of how dangerous an activity may be, this way even if I enjoy gambling I can keep myself alert on any symptoms that may indicate that I could be having some sort of problem with it, fortunately nothing like that has happened to me, but it is difficult to see how people that were living normal lives suddenly found themselves being addicted and lost everything that they had.

[hyudien]

That is the worst impact of just losing money, that is we will lose the trust of others even from our own family, in other words, maybe that is the social impact that gambling addicts will get. This is indeed worse than just losing some money, because we may be able to find money again, although it will take a little longer to completely restore our financial situation. But if it has entered the social realm, then it will be more complicated than imagined. Previously we may have had a good relationship with the neighborhood, but if they already know our ruin because of gambling maybe slowly the good relationship will be a little tenuous. I think what makes it tenuous is that the addict becomes more ashamed of what he or she is going through.
This is what should be realized, but again when they have not felt the impact, then they will not be able to accept easily the advice that comes to them. But when everything has happened then it will make them fully realize that what they have been doing all this time is something wrong because gambling without any rules they do. The rules should always be adhered to, and not just in gambling, but in all aspects of life.

Social impact could really only happen on the time that you would really be tolerating your addiction into that extreme manner on which you are already affecting out your relationship with other people.
You would really be coming into a point that you would really be breaking their trust and this is something that should really be that avoided at all cost. Losing money in gambling is really that inevitable and this is something that you should really be wary and on the time that you are already spending up that much then this would be the solid indication or signal that you should really be stopping gambling if you dont like on messing up your life with. Once that gambling addiction would really be able to shackle you out then there's no way that you could really be able to get out so easily
not until that you would really be able to affect to those people around you.

This is why if you dont like on having that kind of life then it would be always best to stop mid-way which its not something simple but its not that impossible if you are really just that eager on doing so.
Just looking on how booming up gambling industry is, on which you could really be able to tell that there are lots of people who are really that getting addicted to it.
So on the time that you do make yourself getting some involvement then it would be always best that you should make use of your self awareness and common sense.

You are right, but the problem is that gamblers who already have an addiction will not be able to just realize the impact they will receive, they gamble because of the emotional impulses that control them, and we know that if emotions control a person, then that person will find it difficult to think rationally.
Actually they don't need to get advice or so, if they really use their common sense, it should be when they see someone who is destroyed because of gambling it can make them realize. But that is not the case, instead there are some people who justify their gambling activities that are beyond reasonable limits.
It is a simple choice, but in reality it is not that simple for some people. Indeed, one way to make them really realize is that they feel the impact directly, but that is too extreme for us to see. Therefore, those of us who have normal thoughts try to do our best for such people, because even though we are also active in gambling activities, we don't want to see someone lose everything because of this gambling.

[TravelMug]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

Sometimes I watch documentaries and stories like that in order to remind myself of how dangerous an activity may be, this way even if I enjoy gambling I can keep myself alert on any symptoms that may indicate that I could be having some sort of problem with it, fortunately nothing like that has happened to me, but it is difficult to see how people that were living normal lives suddenly found themselves being addicted and lost everything that they had.

Or we accidentally find this videos, we are curious and then we try to find it out. It's not that we are addicted or not, maybe it's just to watch it and see how it goes. Maybe we can compare our experience with gambling and compare. Nevertheless, this kind of feel good stories and just like that, to refresh us and remind us gamblers the dangers of being addicted and what could happen to us. So don't take it personally if you think that you are not a addicted gambler (although I would argue that anyone here will not admit their addiction). But in any case, just take their life experience with gambling and at the end they were able to get out of it, and it's a happy ending.

[sompitonov]

Or we accidentally find this videos, we are curious and then we try to find it out. It's not that we are addicted or not, maybe it's just to watch it and see how it goes. Maybe we can compare our experience with gambling and compare. Nevertheless, this kind of feel good stories and just like that, to refresh us and remind us gamblers the dangers of being addicted and what could happen to us. So don't take it personally if you think that you are not a addicted gambler (although I would argue that anyone here will not admit their addiction). But in any case, just take their life experience with gambling and at the end they were able to get out of it, and it's a happy ending.

I sometimes watch videos and interviews with addicted gamblers who tell their journey in gambling and their worst and worst stories. They answer questions such as their biggest losses, how they played for the first time and how much debt they owe to friends, relatives and neighbors. These videos allow me to learn many stories and understand exactly what not to do based on the mistakes of others. Still, we must learn from the mistakes of others for our own development. Of course, some of them were able to recover from losses and never bet irresponsibly again. And others couldn’t help themselves and continue to play until all the available money runs out, I don’t even understand what they are hoping for, is it really a jackpot that will hit them one day, thanks to which they will pay off all their debts.

[Silberman]

Or we accidentally find this videos, we are curious and then we try to find it out. It's not that we are addicted or not, maybe it's just to watch it and see how it goes. Maybe we can compare our experience with gambling and compare. Nevertheless, this kind of feel good stories and just like that, to refresh us and remind us gamblers the dangers of being addicted and what could happen to us. So don't take it personally if you think that you are not a addicted gambler (although I would argue that anyone here will not admit their addiction). But in any case, just take their life experience with gambling and at the end they were able to get out of it, and it's a happy ending.

I sometimes watch videos and interviews with addicted gamblers who tell their journey in gambling and their worst and worst stories. They answer questions such as their biggest losses, how they played for the first time and how much debt they owe to friends, relatives and neighbors. These videos allow me to learn many stories and understand exactly what not to do based on the mistakes of others. Still, we must learn from the mistakes of others for our own development. Of course, some of them were able to recover from losses and never bet irresponsibly again. And others couldn’t help themselves and continue to play until all the available money runs out, I don’t even understand what they are hoping for, is it really a jackpot that will hit them one day, thanks to which they will pay off all their debts.

For what I have watched on those documentaries, it is not that those that keep gambling, even after many attempts to stop, are expecting to get a big win to recover some or all the money they lost, what happens is they cannot stop themselves to gamble, even when they know it is harmful to them, basically their priorities are so skewed that no matter what anyone may say to them, they do not want to stop, and when a person is in that state then no matter what their loved ones do to help them, it will never be enough.

[Accardo]

Or we accidentally find this videos, we are curious and then we try to find it out. It's not that we are addicted or not, maybe it's just to watch it and see how it goes. Maybe we can compare our experience with gambling and compare. Nevertheless, this kind of feel good stories and just like that, to refresh us and remind us gamblers the dangers of being addicted and what could happen to us. So don't take it personally if you think that you are not a addicted gambler (although I would argue that anyone here will not admit their addiction). But in any case, just take their life experience with gambling and at the end they were able to get out of it, and it's a happy ending.

I sometimes watch videos and interviews with addicted gamblers who tell their journey in gambling and their worst and worst stories. They answer questions such as their biggest losses, how they played for the first time and how much debt they owe to friends, relatives and neighbors. These videos allow me to learn many stories and understand exactly what not to do based on the mistakes of others. Still, we must learn from the mistakes of others for our own development. Of course, some of them were able to recover from losses and never bet irresponsibly again. And others couldn’t help themselves and continue to play until all the available money runs out, I don’t even understand what they are hoping for, is it really a jackpot that will hit them one day, thanks to which they will pay off all their debts.

Gambling addiction is a dreaded sickness, and all gamblers should find a means of staying clear from such a chronic problem. Hence, even the non-addict should take such videos serious and not think that they're safe. Anybody can become a victim, in just a loss of self control. Hence learning from the mistakes shown in the video is crucial for gamblers. It helps in identifying the problems once the player is gambling. Experience teaches gamblers not to get addicted. If a player has seen an addict undergo severe pains and suffering, he wouldn't hesitate on following some precautionary strategies able to put him away from addiction. The goal remains staying responsible.

Multiple information has been passed online about the problems addicts go through, yet we see new cases occurring. Hence, responsible gambling should be worn as a clothe against the coldness of addiction. Those who gambled on their funds away, lost control and wasn't able to hurt the session. They are chasing loss, motive, earning back lost money. That's almost impossible on a single session. They fail to understand that they've got another day to play again. It's not a one-day course. Contrary to such belief, leads to a downward course. No player made it big in just one day of gambling, it takes multiple weeks of consistency. Although, nobody knows what will happen, but, theoretically from examples, most players who won big didn't attain it on their first day of gambling.

[Crypt0Gore]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

Someone's mindset can really be the source of their punishment, it's wrong to believe that gambling can make your rich, it's like opening the door of a prison cell and locking yourself inside and tossing the key away, what you choose to believe in can take your rise to your fall.

With gambling, we all get what we wanted after all, If you want to make money through gambling you should be expecting losses as well, you can't be too greedy with gambling, and you will easily get Rekt.

Every rekt gamblers have one thing in common, they all want to win big, they even laugh at us who are used to using small amounts of money, they love saying that those who use small amounts of money can never make money when gambling, and so far they are wrong, because I've won some good amounts using small money.

[sompitonov]

Or we accidentally find this videos, we are curious and then we try to find it out. It's not that we are addicted or not, maybe it's just to watch it and see how it goes. Maybe we can compare our experience with gambling and compare. Nevertheless, this kind of feel good stories and just like that, to refresh us and remind us gamblers the dangers of being addicted and what could happen to us. So don't take it personally if you think that you are not a addicted gambler (although I would argue that anyone here will not admit their addiction). But in any case, just take their life experience with gambling and at the end they were able to get out of it, and it's a happy ending.

I sometimes watch videos and interviews with addicted gamblers who tell their journey in gambling and their worst and worst stories. They answer questions such as their biggest losses, how they played for the first time and how much debt they owe to friends, relatives and neighbors. These videos allow me to learn many stories and understand exactly what not to do based on the mistakes of others. Still, we must learn from the mistakes of others for our own development. Of course, some of them were able to recover from losses and never bet irresponsibly again. And others couldn’t help themselves and continue to play until all the available money runs out, I don’t even understand what they are hoping for, is it really a jackpot that will hit them one day, thanks to which they will pay off all their debts.

For what I have watched on those documentaries, it is not that those that keep gambling, even after many attempts to stop, are expecting to get a big win to recover some or all the money they lost, what happens is they cannot stop themselves to gamble, even when they know it is harmful to them, basically their priorities are so skewed that no matter what anyone may say to them, they do not want to stop, and when a person is in that state then no matter what their loved ones do to help them, it will never be enough.

Indeed, if this player understood that no one is able to influence his destiny like himself, then he would probably play less and concentrate on building and improving his life. I understand that this is very difficult, I even went through this myself when I lost all my money set aside for a vacation, but I have never borrowed from anyone. My conscience simply did not allow me to do this. If I borrowed money from someone, it would potentially lead to me not being able to repay these debts without being able to do so.

Gambling addiction is a dreaded sickness, and all gamblers should find a means of staying clear from such a chronic problem. Hence, even the non-addict should take such videos serious and not think that they're safe. Anybody can become a victim, in just a loss of self control. Hence learning from the mistakes shown in the video is crucial for gamblers. It helps in identifying the problems once the player is gambling. Experience teaches gamblers not to get addicted. If a player has seen an addict undergo severe pains and suffering, he wouldn't hesitate on following some precautionary strategies able to put him away from addiction. The goal remains staying responsible.

Multiple information has been passed online about the problems addicts go through, yet we see new cases occurring. Hence, responsible gambling should be worn as a clothe against the coldness of addiction. Those who gambled on their funds away, lost control and wasn't able to hurt the session. They are chasing loss, motive, earning back lost money. That's almost impossible on a single session. They fail to understand that they've got another day to play again. It's not a one-day course. Contrary to such belief, leads to a downward course. No player made it big in just one day of gambling, it takes multiple weeks of consistency. Although, nobody knows what will happen, but, theoretically from examples, most players who won big didn't attain it on their first day of gambling.

This is the main trap of self-confident people who are new to the game, they think that they are not as weak as addicted players, and this is what will punish them later.

I just watched a video where a young mother with 2 children tells her story about losses and debts, it is very difficult, but I force myself to watch it so that I know what happens if you cross the line.

[summonerrk]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

Someone's mindset can really be the source of their punishment, it's wrong to believe that gambling can make your rich, it's like opening the door of a prison cell and locking yourself inside and tossing the key away, what you choose to believe in can take your rise to your fall.

With gambling, we all get what we wanted after all, If you want to make money through gambling you should be expecting losses as well, you can't be too greedy with gambling, and you will easily get Rekt.

Every rekt gamblers have one thing in common, they all want to win big, they even laugh at us who are used to using small amounts of money, they love saying that those who use small amounts of money can never make money when gambling, and so far they are wrong, because I've won some good amounts using small money.

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

[Jawhead999]

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

Yep, maybe this is the reason why offline lottery still popular until now because people are hoping they will become the one lucky winner among a lot participants out there. Usually gamblers who won small amount money will share their achievement through the casino's social media or their friends, but their winnings won't able to be posted in an article and become popular.

[Blitzboy]

I don't have to watch videos like this because I decline and I am an addict. No, I am not a gambling addict and I know my situation and I have control of myself.

With these videos, they're inspirational if someone is going through with the same problem of having a gambling addiction and can't find a way out of it.

Words of encouragements are there but getting out the actuality is certainly hard. Even if you just stay on the forum and read some stories here, you'd see gamblers that have recovery stories.

Someone's mindset can really be the source of their punishment, it's wrong to believe that gambling can make your rich, it's like opening the door of a prison cell and locking yourself inside and tossing the key away, what you choose to believe in can take your rise to your fall.

With gambling, we all get what we wanted after all, If you want to make money through gambling you should be expecting losses as well, you can't be too greedy with gambling, and you will easily get Rekt.

Every rekt gamblers have one thing in common, they all want to win big, they even laugh at us who are used to using small amounts of money, they love saying that those who use small amounts of money can never make money when gambling, and so far they are wrong, because I've won some good amounts using small money.

Really, it's simple. Gambling is a fast pathway to problems, not wealth. The assumption that gambling makes you rich? Wrong! A high-risk game. The idea that risk = gain is risky.

You're right - small bets, consistent wins. It's not about investing big and expecting more. Smart, methodical moves. You showed that patience and judgment can pay off in gambling. The key? Know the game, know your limits, and avoid greed. That keeps you ahead, not by chasing the impossible.

[stomachgrowls]

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

Yep, maybe this is the reason why offline lottery still popular until now because people are hoping they will become the one lucky winner among a lot participants out there. Usually gamblers who won small amount money will share their achievement through the casino's social media or their friends, but their winnings won't able to be posted in an article and become popular.

Of course on which news outlets or media would really be that focusing into those huge wins or jackpots for it to be featured rather than on going into those small wins. Actually its not really that something that significant on trying out to share with those small wins that you've been able to hit up because if we do sensibly trying out to look back on how much we've lost then for sure you wont really be that looking happy with it.
When it comes to gambling addiction stories then we could really be having tons or lots and those recovery is something that could be done on silent yet addicts wont really be that too showy when it comes
to their addictions and they would really be keeping it private as much as they could. This is why it would really be better that if you do find yourself that addicted to gambling
then you should really be stopping it immediately while you can.

[ethereumhunter]

Every rekt gamblers have one thing in common, they all want to win big, they even laugh at us who are used to using small amounts of money, they love saying that those who use small amounts of money can never make money when gambling, and so far they are wrong, because I've won some good amounts using small money.

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

Yes, that's rights because when they knows about big win from someone, their minds directly said that they can win big if they trying too. That makes them still trying to buy lottery especially when they lose some money because the sounds of the winning still louder in their ear and makes them curious about the winning. They allocates more money to buy lottery because with the cheap price of the lottery, they can buy a lot of tickets and they can hopes to be the winners. Yes, the casino still makes promotions to attracts more people because the casino knows that people will be greedy when they already wins. They will continue playing gambling although they already wins before because they wants bigger winning.

[junder]

Gambling addiction is a dreaded sickness, and all gamblers should find a means of staying clear from such a chronic problem. Hence, even the non-addict should take such videos serious and not think that they're safe. Anybody can become a victim, in just a loss of self control. Hence learning from the mistakes shown in the video is crucial for gamblers. It helps in identifying the problems once the player is gambling. Experience teaches gamblers not to get addicted. If a player has seen an addict undergo severe pains and suffering, he wouldn't hesitate on following some precautionary strategies able to put him away from addiction. The goal remains staying responsible.

Multiple information has been passed online about the problems addicts go through, yet we see new cases occurring. Hence, responsible gambling should be worn as a clothe against the coldness of addiction. Those who gambled on their funds away, lost control and wasn't able to hurt the session. They are chasing loss, motive, earning back lost money. That's almost impossible on a single session. They fail to understand that they've got another day to play again. It's not a one-day course. Contrary to such belief, leads to a downward course. No player made it big in just one day of gambling, it takes multiple weeks of consistency. Although, nobody knows what will happen, but, theoretically from examples, most players who won big didn't attain it on their first day of gambling.

Hopefully, people who are not addicted to gambling can see those who are addicted to gambling as an example for themselves not to do excessive gambling. With the many cases of the adverse effects of gambling addiction, we can make our own lessons so that we do not do the same thing, namely excessive gambling. Bensr that you said, anyone can become addicted to gambling when gambling and losing self-control, many people or gamblers who experience huge financial losses are because they gamble with a loss of self-control, a frequent occurrence is depositing money back when the gambling done ends in defeat. sometimes it also becomes an impulsive action.

Therefore, we should be able to emphasize that gambling should be done responsibly from all aspects, including the finances allocated for gambling. Many gamblers misunderstand the true meaning of gambling, where they consider gambling as a sure means of making money, while the victory in gambling cannot be obtained with certainty according to our heart's desire. In my opinion, losing self-control when gambling can make things messy, so from that we must be able to control ourselves well as well as control our thoughts so that we can think positively.

[decodx]

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

Yep, maybe this is the reason why offline lottery still popular until now because people are hoping they will become the one lucky winner among a lot participants out there. Usually gamblers who won small amount money will share their achievement through the casino's social media or their friends, but their winnings won't able to be posted in an article and become popular.

You make an excellent point.  There is an undeniable thrill that comes with holding that physical lottery ticket, letting your imagination run wild with possibilities before revealing what lies underneath and  small wins we tend to celebrate more intimately with those closest to us, while big jackpot wins catapult people into internet fame. 

Imagine the headlines: "Local Pizza Delivery Guy Wins Enough Bitcoin to Buy His Own Island!"  That would truly be a viral story! Most of us can only daydream about such a radical life change.  But I suppose someone has to win those insane mega millions prizes we always hear about.

[summonerrk]

Because the story of a rare but big win sounds much louder than the story of many but not big wins. I think that's why lotteries prefer to give a huge amount of money to one lucky person rather than give it to a lot of people in small amounts. It turns out to be a promotion that attracts players. Although such a distribution can hardly be called fair.

Yep, maybe this is the reason why offline lottery still popular until now because people are hoping they will become the one lucky winner among a lot participants out there. Usually gamblers who won small amount money will share their achievement through the casino's social media or their friends, but their winnings won't able to be posted in an article and become popular.

When you win a large sum in a lottery or casino, anonymity can be important. Some people are afraid that if they become known as winners, they may be robbed or asked for money. Therefore, many prefer to remain incognito and not reveal their identity.
But sometimes anonymity can lead to problems with the tax service, so it is important to carefully consider all the pros and cons.

[borovichok]

Not just money they lose, but time and relationship. The other video that I saw that he was not even present with the delivery of his first and second kid, he was done gambling and trying to make money for the hospital bills but it turns out that he losses in both time.

When anyone loses money by gambling then the user has nothing to do if the user has no way to afford the loss. And in this case, it may cause several side effects. The user may fall into bad evil and it may turn into killing and also it may turn into suicide.

True. When individuals lose money through gambling and are unable to afford the losses, it affects their mental health and overall well-being. This loss can create financial distress and emotional turmoil. Gamblers who are unable to afford the losses may find themselves in a deadly financial situation which will make the gambler struggle to meet his basic needs or pay off debts incurred from gambling. Also, feelings of shame and regret are common among gamblers who experience significant losses.

Above all, the most extreme consequence of severe gambling losses is suicide. When gamblers feel overwhelmed by their financial situation and see no way out, they may resort to drastic measures. This could include turning to criminal activities, which may escalate into violent behaviour, or contemplating suicide as a way to escape the mounting pressure and distress. Stories have surfaced online about how people lost huge amounts of money, couldn’t bear the loss and then committed suicide.