Yes, I just don't use too much bitcointalk, this doesn't make me a bad actor
Do you not know the reason why nobody will lend you this money on this forum? What if someone lend you the money and you do not pay back, you got nothing to lose.
If you want to borrow money on this forum, you will need to have a collateral for it or you will have to be in a signature campaign. In a way the person that wants to loan you the money will know that you have high probability that you will pay the money back.
The way you requested for it and your reputation on this forum, this is not more than a scam if someone lend you the money because the probability of you to pay back the money is zero.