I've been having suicidal thoughts.

[Geraldo]

Recently I had the stupidest idea in my lifetime, I jumped into the solana ecosystem. Yep, you can guess what happened, I have lost all of my money trying to make it there. More than 30k which doesnt sound like a lot but from where im from it really is.

All of my struggles gone in a matter of weeks, my stupidity got the best of me and I couldnt control myself, couldnt stop myself. I have had some thoughts since then, not the best ones. Im ashamed of what I did and im hopeless, how am I going to tell my family about this, how do I tell them I lost everything and im a fuckup.. I have been having these thoughts the past few days, seems more and more appealing to me. Ive always struggled with my mental health but never like this. It feels like im hanging from a cliff with no end. The only good option is to let go.

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

[XZERO1]

Not gonna tell you to not feel bad because at the moment you are going to feel bad and maybe horrible anyway, sooner or later.

But think of this way: this bad moment you are in right now would not matter at all 1 year from now, by around that time or very likely even sooner you could go months without thinking about this loss and that is just to tell you how much this one bad thing that happened to you or the mistake you just made in the grand scheme of things does not matter, or won't change your life in a very meaningful way.

Also if you managed to make that amount of money in the first place to be able to lose it, no matter how big of an amount you think it is, it means you definitely can make that amount of money again.

Give it some days and weeks and I'm hoping you're in a better shape mentally by then, wishing you the absolute best.

[hornetsnest]

Recently I had the stupidest idea in my lifetime, I jumped into the solana ecosystem. Yep, you can guess what happened, I have lost all of my money trying to make it there. More than 30k which doesnt sound like a lot but from where im from it really is.

All of my struggles gone in a matter of weeks, my stupidity got the best of me and I couldnt control myself, couldnt stop myself. I have had some thoughts since then, not the best ones. Im ashamed of what I did and im hopeless, how am I going to tell my family about this, how do I tell them I lost everything and im a fuckup.. I have been having these thoughts the past few days, seems more and more appealing to me. Ive always struggled with my mental health but never like this. It feels like im hanging from a cliff with no end. The only good option is to let go.

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

Plenty of people have lost their shirts here and went back to square 1 or had an exchange hacked or corrupt wallet downloaded off a dodgy site steal all their corn. Clench your teeth and get back in the game with whatever you can scrounge up and hope for the best. Thats what life is all about. Live in hope or die in despair.

Try older altcoins like BTX (Bitcore) , IXC (iXcoin) , GLC (Goldcoin)NMC (Namecoin) etc and just sit on a stack and hope for the best. Who knows? who cares? Life is shit and then we still die but if youre going to top yourself you are only going to cause misery and grief for your family so ya better get right with Jesus if thats your final decision.

Just say fuck it and move on. Get some job or income and sit on a big bag of altcorn just in case the wind blows in the right direction. Doldrums last for ages and get mundane but such is life. Up and down round and round over za hill we go ..nobody knows whats over the crest or around the next bend. Cest la vie.

[Oshio-man]

Recently I had the stupidest idea in my lifetime, I jumped into the solana ecosystem. Yep, you can guess what happened, I have lost all of my money trying to make it there. More than 30k which doesnt sound like a lot but from where im from it really is.

All of my struggles gone in a matter of weeks, my stupidity got the best of me and I couldnt control myself, couldnt stop myself. I have had some thoughts since then, not the best ones. Im ashamed of what I did and im hopeless, how am I going to tell my family about this, how do I tell them I lost everything and im a fuckup.. I have been having these thoughts the past few days, seems more and more appealing to me. Ive always struggled with my mental health but never like this. It feels like im hanging from a cliff with no end. The only good option is to let go.

This are some of the things you must go through in life, for you to become a great man or woman, because every great man or woman you see around this community have story of his or her life to tell people around them, you don't need to kill yourself for people to know that you Lost such huge amount of funds, just compose yourself as a gentle man you are and move on with your life, just try and look for other way where you can get a better job that will help you to save some funds that will make you to try bitcoin investment, I believe you can recover all you have lost in that Solana ecosystem if you can hold bitcoin for long term.

[BitcoinBarrel]

Recently I had the stupidest idea in my lifetime, I jumped into the solana ecosystem. Yep, you can guess what happened, I have lost all of my money trying to make it there. More than 30k which doesnt sound like a lot but from where im from it really is.

All of my struggles gone in a matter of weeks, my stupidity got the best of me and I couldnt control myself, couldnt stop myself. I have had some thoughts since then, not the best ones. Im ashamed of what I did and im hopeless, how am I going to tell my family about this, how do I tell them I lost everything and im a fuckup.. I have been having these thoughts the past few days, seems more and more appealing to me. Ive always struggled with my mental health but never like this. It feels like im hanging from a cliff with no end. The only good option is to let go.

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

There's more to life than money.

All you have is this moment, so practice Gratitude.

Don't worry about the past or future which is outside of your control. Realize that nothing is ever lost, there is an opportunity in every moment.

Even if you doubled your money to $60k you still would not have been happy. Happiness is in the moment, right now. Your chasing of materialistic rewards and lack of gratitude is why you lost everything.

Learn to appreciate what you have.

A poor man needs everything, and accomplishes nothing. While a rich man needs nothing, and accomplishes everything.

[philipma1957]

I sent a pm to you.

Thank you for reaching out about the pain you are in.

Feel free to exchange some pms with me.

[OgNasty]

Man, we are still so early.  If you are aware of crypto and have an idea of what you are doing you are still so far ahead of others.  You have time to grow your stack again, or find something new that brings you happiness.  Redemption is a great thing.  Everyone's story has low points.  There was a time when I was sleeping in the back seat of my car in dark alleys hoping the police wouldn't bother me.  I couldn't stretch out, had no blanket so I'd spend the night shivering, and I'd hope to find a house party where I could get a shower.  Now I look back at that time with great pride that I did it, survived it, and got to where I am.  If you think I'd trade those terrifying freezing nights for memories of a silver spoon, you are wrong.  Keep your head up.  Someday you'll look back at these times as the times that made you.

[Israelgogo]

Don't let that ugly suicidal thoughts deceives you man. You don't lose everything, remember you still got family and they mean everything to you than a 30k lost not actually in the stupidest ways but in your strive to make life more better not just for you but also for your family. Trust if you could make 30k then you can make millions of you pick yourself up and start from scratch again. There's no shame in losing, it's all pathway to reaching the top. So it's not over yet brace up man.

[hellflame]

Recently I had the stupidest idea in my lifetime, I jumped into the solana ecosystem. Yep, you can guess what happened, I have lost all of my money trying to make it there. More than 30k which doesnt sound like a lot but from where im from it really is.

All of my struggles gone in a matter of weeks, my stupidity got the best of me and I couldnt control myself, couldnt stop myself. I have had some thoughts since then, not the best ones. Im ashamed of what I did and im hopeless, how am I going to tell my family about this, how do I tell them I lost everything and im a fuckup.. I have been having these thoughts the past few days, seems more and more appealing to me. Ive always struggled with my mental health but never like this. It feels like im hanging from a cliff with no end. The only good option is to let go.

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

Dear friend , ignore satan and all the convincing lies enticing you to do this at your lowest moments of despair. The almighty G-D loves you and gives everyone another chance called tomorrrow until those days have passed. Let the Almighty be your refuge and fortress and lead you out of this darkness. Psalm 91 and hold firm in your sorrows. Amen brother.

[ivroer]

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

When you're down and troubled, and you need a helping hand...  (James Taylor)

A call for help should always be answered, and sometimes it can feel like you're so deep you've lost all sense of direction.

You reach out, hoping you're not alone, and I absolutely guarantee you the path is - sadly - well travelled. By many intrepid crypto explorers who have tripped, stumbled, fallen, and need that helping hand to pull themselves up. To see that life's journey, can, and will continue for you. The direction from here is your choosing, but you don't have to do it alone.

Advisable that the initial steps to find a stable footing might be small steps taken with care. Try to find some time to reflect, reminisce of times before recent events, or even before your crypto journey began. Try to spend some time with people, even if you are not ready to tell them what is bothering you. Are there special events during the year you would look forward to?

If you are feeling shame, guilt, embarrassment, or failure, etc. We are all human, we all make mistakes. But as humans we are capable of amazing things, joyful and spectacular things. Many of those wonderful things in life involve some level of risk, and we as humans are hard wired to test the limits of risk and reward. Life is about sharing experiences, thank you for sharing your story with us.

And yes, initially your family might be shocked to learn of the financial misfortune, even angry at first. But in time, people forgive, and remember:

There's more to life than money.

You've come this far to share your story with your crypto brethren of 7 or 8 years. Let us know what we can do to help you share your story with a trusted friend or a professional, the steps forward will become clearer as you unpack your burdens from your mind and speak them out loud.

[marcotheminer]

Stay solid, it's still a wild west but we don't need to tip(cryp)toe! Lament in a sensible manner, and onwards! Look at this forum and you will see all the highs and lows lived through Cryptocurrency (all started from a single application programmed as "Bitcoin"). You can make back the money (or so I keep being told!) but time can't be accumulated and spent at will, it's continuous. Here's to your next step being a bit bolder after a temporary setback. Keep strivin'.

[marcotheminer]

Here's a possible joke??.. Hope a It's GeralDO; not GeralDON'T!! So keep doing you mate.

[tetaeridanus]

Hey,

I’ve been in your shoes and still am wearing them.

But be strong; numbers are subjective, I wish I have lost your amount, I would be the happiest man in earth.

I lost  few 7 figures over night on war bells last april ETH 3xd from 3800 and got liquidated in 3 days.

That was all the money I have accumulated in 8 years.

Guess what happened? I am still alive. So you should be.

You can pick the game, but you cannot change the rules.

Keep hustling, don’t gamble, cherish your loved ones.

I lost the most dearest person on earth to me last week; which made me shook. I will choose losing that money
ten times to losing your family. Cherish if you have them still with you.

Cherish the times you spent in rock bottom; and don’t forget the lessons it teaches you.

The only way is up for you, remember that.

I have survived and am still trying to survive this nightmare every living moment and will probably my entire life.

But guess what? Money is bullshit. There are lots of things more important than money.

Best.

Tetaeridanus.

[DeathAngel]

Please don’t harm yourself, you have people who care about you & love you very much. You have lost money but money is not the most important thing in the world. You can make it back one day. Try to forget about crypto for a while whilst you try to recover mentally from what has happened. I promise you will feel better soon. Try to spend quality time with family & friends, remember things that are fun in life, keep away from crypto for a while.

[GxSTxV]

I can really relate to your situation, as I faced a similar struggle in the last month. Like you where I found myself in a dark place after losing a significant important amount of money to gambling while also dealing with debts owed to friends and on Bitcointalk. The strong pressure led me to thoughts of suicide and depression at the moment and it felt like there was no way out. 

The only place I felt comfortable sharing my struggles initially was on Bitcointalk, and here is the thread where I opened up: The harsh reality of GxSTxV

However, I want to assure you that healing and recovery are possible. I shared again my journey toward rebuilding my life finding hope and working on myself in this thread: Recovery journey from gambling addiction.


Please know that you are not alone in this, and it’s okay to seek help and lean on others. Sharing your story is a brave first step in my opinion and also experience. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to or if I can help in any way.

[Geraldo]

I can really relate to your situation, as I faced a similar struggle in the last month. Like you where I found myself in a dark place after losing a significant important amount of money to gambling while also dealing with debts owed to friends and on Bitcointalk. The strong pressure led me to thoughts of suicide and depression at the moment and it felt like there was no way out. 

The only place I felt comfortable sharing my struggles initially was on Bitcointalk, and here is the thread where I opened up: The harsh reality of GxSTxV

However, I want to assure you that healing and recovery are possible. I shared again my journey toward rebuilding my life finding hope and working on myself in this thread: Recovery journey from gambling addiction.


Please know that you are not alone in this, and it’s okay to seek help and lean on others. Sharing your story is a brave first step in my opinion and also experience. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to or if I can help in any way.

Damn bro, read your story. Thank you for taking the time to reply to my post. An update, I have talked to my family about the loss, yeah I could see the disappointment in their faces but now it has become like a joke they tease me with in good spirit trying to make me feel better, and I have been getting better. My mind is clearer now, it is what it is and I have accepted what happened..

Also my mother had some health issues that she has thankfully overcome, made me realise that money is in reality unworthy of my attention and I would gladly burn it all away in exchange for more valuable things like the health and wellbeing of my family.

My biggest loss is not the money, but the time I wasted chasing it, which is the most valuable thing in the world. Going to shift my focus into living life and spending more time with my family cause thats what really matters.

[Cryptohygenic]

Idk why im writing this here, i guess this forum is the place where I started my journey in crypto, and this is where I chose to end it too.

Of a positive input, the forum does have reputations and would be of no interest to mislead it users for selfishness that is why every discussions is made transparent except you choose to go privately in PM with a user.
This is practically of a reason by watching each others back in case of misinformation by an experienced users initiating illegal indulgences on beginners.
The forum has had sanctions that before you key into members opinions especially when making decisions of what coin to invest on. You should make your research to be sure as a case of being alert of scams.
Sorry Op, this is not the end so, you can always take a picture of what bitcoin would become in about 8 to 12 years ahead, then if you can invest in it now, it would do you good of good promises which definitely you could do away with your past experiences with your losts on the Solana because you would definitely earn good values of bitcoin when holding and Dcaing in a long time.
Ending it up here is not the best option. This is one family in a collection measure with the bitcoin and Crypto discussions. We love to see each and everyone one of us prosper in the space so, hold your peace and have better hope in the future.

[Reynaldo]

We're all in this together. Money comes and goes, but the connections we have with each other are irreplaceable. If you're struggling, reach out  to family, friends, or even strangers on a forum who understand what you're going through. There's always another path forward, even when you can't see it yet.

[apogio]

I am very satisfied to see the responses so far. It's very relieving to see that people actually want to help and send their hope in this forum.

I just wanna say the following:

There is no -I repeat there is no- amount of money that is worth your life. You are much more valuable than the whole economy, because there are people in life who love you and it's worth living for them. Money comes and goes and I can guarrantee to you, that you can't buy happiness.



* the image is made with AI

[apogio]

Let's be honest. You are all a bunch of suicidal morons. You are all full of hatred and evil. This means that you will not do a damn thing to prevent human extinction.

Regards,

-Joseph Van Name Ph.D.

Hmm. The community here seems to attract a lot of suicidal people and other people with major problems. If Bitcoin instead had a moo moo farm farm milky milky drippy drippy mining algorithm that was designed to do something more useful, the Bitcoin community would be more intellectual. But you are all too fucking stupid to understand anything that I am saying, so fuck you. The other cryptocurrency ecosystems seem to attract some of the stupidest fucking morons as well. If you kill yourself, that will simply be natural selection at work weeding out those foolish enough to lose everything. And no, your life is not even worth 30,000 dollars because the value of a human life is 0 dollars and zero cents. I would not save a life of anyone even if it cost me nothing because humans are evil.

I don't understand how you can possibly have 50 merits. I would accept your post as a solid opinion, but claiming life isn't worth anything and insulting all the other forum members is disgusting.