You are an experienced trader yourself and have already lost a lot. It surprises me that you are expecting advice in this situation. It is disappointing to have such a high loss after trading in the short term but you should have realized this earlier.
I even know a forex trader with 10 years of experience, and he is also experienced a lot of big losses. But they still seek advice from others, sometimes even from people who know nothing about trading. Simply because when losses persist, they often lose direction, fall into a state of deadlock and can no longer view the problem objectively. Therefore, it is perfectly normal for them to ask for advice.
I am sure you were greedy and traded low value shitcoins and got addicted. My advice is forget trading although it is not easy. However I would advise you to withdraw yourself from trading in the hope of short term profits.
Even if you trade with bitcoin, not shitcoin, you will still lose money if you use high leverage. Bitcoin will not save you in this case.
Start accumulation Bitcoin for long term using DCA method. This will be the only ideal investment for you and continue Bitcoin for 4-10 years with your comfortable funds every week.
OP has 5 years of experience in the market, and I think he understands this better than we do. But he still chose to trade futures.
I think what he needs to do is take a break and stay away from the market for a while to calm down.