Living in the USA, sucking up the benefits of doing so...
Benefits, such as post-traumatic stress disorder ? Surviving a suicidal depression or two? My existence has been suffering for most of my young life. Yeah, thanks 'murica. Good lookin' out.
Beliathon, if indeed you experience these conditions you have my concern and support and you should know that I have more than a passing familiarity with both of them.
If, as I suspect, I am more than a bit older than yourself, I can tell you that many years ago I saw some of the things that you see now and blamed the government, the city, the law, the local baker, the police, the neighbourhood market and the very Earth on which I trod.
One day, it hit me that things were the way that they were and there was not a damned thing that I could do about it and that it was time to throw off the chains.
There is help and treatment available for the conditions that you describe and you should avail yourself of them.
You will find little help on this forum but you can find real-world help and you should do so immediately.
You are a smart guy and we agree on many things and I'd even like to sit down with you over a drink or tow but you have to start geting on with your life in a constructive manner or you will shrivel like a plant in a drought.
Hang in there.
