End your life whatt. Is that the only purpose you were born to earn lot's of money and then commit sucide when you lose it. Even though it was your mistake in the first place as you blindly deposited a amount like 10 btc on gambling!!!. Anyways unfortunately there's nothing you can do about it now just forget it and move on and don't every gamble again to get you loss back.
If op have little brain left he will stop gambling forever, and that is only smart thing that he can do in this point of his life. Every man make mistakes, that is normal and thats how we learn to do something right, its not normal to commit suicide just for losing money, or making few mistakes, man admits that he was wrong and try to fix it in best possible way, here fixing problem means stopping with gambling activities for good.
I totally agree with you i really never understood why do humans in general commit sucide on small things like losing money , or even losing a person you love. Just think about the people who helped you reach at this point. Think about your parents. Ups and downs will surely happen in life it depends on the person weather he gives up or fights the situation.
I feel the OP only issued a temporary statement after experiencing a major loss in gambling, it's just like you lost a business tender or even split up with your spouse, naturally if he feels this. I responded with the phrase "don't be too stupid if you are experiencing a downturn, immediately rise from adversity"
If the OP is a gambler, then take a rest for a while (on vacation and looking for other pleasures) don't ever come back until things get better. If the OP is not a gambler then immediately put an end to gambling and try to focus on another bussiness.