Don't let depression get you down. Some of the best people society has ever known suffered depression. One of my heroes, Thomas Henry Huxley, had acute depression throughout his entire life.
Huxley was at the forefront of evolution with Darwin during the last century. Self-taught. autodidact. A boy who left school at ten became one of the most knowledgeable men in Britain. He reformed the entire education system in the UK and was responsible for turning biology from a hobby into a respectable profession.
When Huxley himself was young there were virtually no degrees in British universities in the biological sciences and few courses. Most biologists of his day were either self-taught, or took medical degrees. When he retired there were established chairs in biological disciplines in most universities, and a broad consensus on the curricula to be followed. Huxley was the single most influential person in this transformation.
Huxley founded the X Club which founded the journal Nature.
Huxley's interest in education went still further than school and university classrooms; he made a great effort to reach interested adults of all kinds: after all, he himself was largely self-educated. There were his lecture courses for working men, many of which were published afterwards... and so was the free library organised by the college, an idea which was widely copied. Huxley thought, and said, that the men who attended were as good as any country squire. The technique of printing his more popular lectures in periodicals which were sold to the general public was extremely effective... Its theme — that vital action is nothing more than "the result of the molecular forces of the protoplasm which displays it" — shocked the audience.
Sadly Thomas Henry Huxley suffered depression
throughout his lifetime. Many others in his family were mentally ill. Several descendents from first to third generation of his suffered severe depresson, some committing suicide.
You look really young. And there are still a huge amount of things that will happen in your life. Try to enjoy yourself. Just have fun
We live in incredible times. Everything is moving forwards quickly and we're a part of that, simply by participating in cyber-space.