IS THIS ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION?

[Jaycee99]

Since Quarantine started I was always down not because of Covid because of my family, my sister said something to me that was so bad it was stuck like gum on my mind(For that I jump on a condo pool without my family seeing it as they been informed they just know about it one of my sisters just laugh every time I say the word jump )

besides that, I was being judged on every action that I made half of it was true and a half was not. Every month was a suicidal though for me and my family don't know about it

Yesterday I was feeling down emotionally drained, I experienced a thing that I did not experience before. I was doing the dishes and all of a sudden I cried nonstop until I stop crying. Still Later.........

I can't do things properly as I can't think straight after the dishes I was struggling around like I was stretching ( I don't know how to call it properly it was like using my thumb to give my fingers a push like a stretch) my fingers one by one while doing that, I was cleaning and looking around on what to do on what is not in a proper place or not clean after that I fix it. I stop and see again what's not in a good place doing it again stopping to see what not clean until I am stuck on that cycle until everything was clean.

As I finished it I was crying out like I really don't know what to do I drank water like I run a marathon but it didn't help. I run around the house and it helps somehow I beginning to calm.

I don't know what was that? IS it ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION? I know I should ask a doctor or what but I don't have enough money I don't see someone in my family that would support me.

Can you guys give a word of advice? besides seeing a doctor,
what did you do if you experience the same thing?

[coindefi]

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this. Covid and the situations in the world right now are truly having a huge impact on the mental health of people everywhere.  I do feel you are definitely having mood and anxiety issues, probably as well, depression. I don't know where you are located, but here is some help if you're in Canada or US.  I hope this helps and that everything will be well with you.  I would google "free mental health assistance" for your country and make sure that whatever contact you choose that they are actual accredited mental health professionals.

In Canada suicide help line 1-833-456-4566
US Anxiety and Depression Association of America https://adaa.org/

[DeathAngel]

The lockdowns, restrictions etc have put stress on a lot of peoples mental health. You are not alone, there is always somebody worse off than you though.

Maybe try & speak to a close friend or relative that you can trust, it’s good to talk. Don’t leave it all bottled up inside.
Do you know what I’ve been doing during lockdown? I’ve been going for long walks at a place of beauty, it really helps your state of mind.

[boyptc]

I feel you Jaycee. Don't know if it's any of those but needless to say, don't ever think of ending your life.

You may feel down and bad because of the mental stress that this covid-19 pandemic has brought. And even your mental awareness has been affected and probably your relationship to your sister. Don't be shy to say what you feel right now because your family cares for you. They'll the ones to give you aid from this suffering that you're experiencing.

If you can't confront your sister, try to talk with your mother/father or anyone that's older than your sister in your family or a relative of yours that you sure will understand what you feeling.

I understand that posting here is one of your solutions to release that feeling you're having right now. You just have to release it through talking and confronting your sister at the right time when you're ready. It will take time and don't rush.

If running, exercising, or swimming releases some stress hormones of yours, just keep doing it. Releasing some sweat would make us feel. Just like what I've felt all of these months when I exercise and getting sweaty, I feel better, and that seems to be a temporary to a permanent solution for me.

[acener]

Since Quarantine started I was always down not because of Covid because of my family, my sister said something to me that was so bad it was stuck like gum on my mind(For that I jump on a condo pool without my family seeing it as they been informed they just know about it one of my sisters just laugh every time I say the word jump )

besides that, I was being judged on every action that I made half of it was true and a half was not. Every month was a suicidal though for me and my family don't know about it

Yesterday I was feeling down emotionally drained, I experienced a thing that I did not experience before. I was doing the dishes and all of a sudden I cried nonstop until I stop crying. Still Later.........

I can't do things properly as I can't think straight after the dishes I was struggling around like I was stretching ( I don't know how to call it properly it was like using my thumb to give my fingers a push like a stretch) my fingers one by one while doing that, I was cleaning and looking around on what to do on what is not in a proper place or not clean after that I fix it. I stop and see again what's not in a good place doing it again stopping to see what not clean until I am stuck on that cycle until everything was clean.

As I finished it I was crying out like I really don't know what to do I drank water like I run a marathon but it didn't help. I run around the house and it helps somehow I beginning to calm.

I don't know what was that? IS it ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION? I know I should ask a doctor or what but I don't have enough money I don't see someone in my family that would support me.

Can you guys give a word of advice? besides seeing a doctor,
what did you do if you experience the same thing?

I don't know what it is but you need to find help maybe not from your family but a friend could be a good one.
I remember having the samething I was down at that time and then out of nowhere my tears would just fall out but I don't know why and I am not sad or anything but my tears would just  drop out.
My wife know about it and my brother they supported me they talk to me and care for me until I started to feel okay again,
They convince me to go out have fun or sometime my brother would ask me to go with him and play some video games since we are both addicted to video games.
Sometimes having some people who cares about you and that you could talk to them open up all your problem is the best way to cure it.