No, it wasn't fear of the end. It was waiting for the beginning, the new beginning. I didn't realize the new beginning was going to take so long getting here.
Ofcourse, both will happen concurrently. There will be doom before a new beginning. Our new beginning is a millennium reign of the LORD of the Universe here on Earth, let's be hopeful. And may we all qualify to make it
Are you so scared of the end of the world that you stopped doing things longterm? You think it's a gamble to get married, have kids, build long-term, etc?
Sounds like you're setting us up to buy something...
That part was innocently written. No evil intention
As a Prepper, the right way to go about it is to prepare like the world will end so soon.
Are you a prepper, Ucy? I used to think about becoming one - now I just want to die
on my own terms. Either in the nuclear blast (if I am close enough), or in my bunker with a nitrogen exit bag. (I guess in a small bunker you wouldn't even need the freezer bag). The worst case scenario is to be injured or trapped and have no way to end your life, leading to days of suffering.
You must have a lot of energy, a lot of DIY skills and tight lips if you want to survive medium term, but long term survival will only be possible in compounds controlled by a militant force and structured duties. Going to be racism, going to be lots of rape and rule of the fittest. Why would you want to survive a nuclear war?
I have been a Pepper since my days of believing that man evolved from apes and survival of the fittest. I saw conflict as a competition for the fittest to dominate or wipeout the weak... And it doesn't matter how victory was achieved as long as your opponent was defeated. I always had very evil victory plans but my conscience would not let me execute them. What I could do without feeling too guilty was fleeing and defending myself at thesame time. And I always planned for things that could allow me survive alone in the jungle or wilderness.
But for us today, prepping is about building on solid foundation, whether by our behaviors or with codes, rocks, iron, mud, straw, etc.
By the way, you actually remind me of my past existence as an unbeliever(atheist/agnostic) when I typically considered suicide as last escape route when there is no other way to escape. But I died and got resurrected, and there has never been any need for suicide, since there is always hope and ways to escape (Glory be to our CREATOR)
So, in my current existence I do not believe your option will be necessary. There will always be hope and miracles else we wouldn't stand any chance in a world where survival is determined by how wealthy, ruthless and skilled you are.
That was how things worked in my past existence but in this current one we are never abandoned even in a nuclear blast.. I am certain we will be protected from radiation and able to eat while living in the blast zone.
