Suicide Notes - Gambling literally destroyed my life

[Parham6]

I read the story of a guy who managed to get faucet from a gambling website and get more than 3 btc to pay for his expenses so I thought maybe it can help me with my problems too but I lost some money. Then I came up with a decent strategy and took the loss back with some profit. This strategy had 0.04% chance of losing all the money but that happened and I lost 0.95 btc which was the savings of 1.5 years of work. I had to cut from my other things and save that money, then wire it to my friend's paypal so invest in bitcoins which was his idea actually and it was working just fine before I read about that guy on the internet. Today a friend of me gave me a few more cents in btc, but I lost them again to the same strategy.

I'm from Iran, you can't even imagine the hell I'm living in. 1$ is worth 40,000 my currency and you can get food for a day with that much. People are really poor in this country, we use dial-up internet. I get paid every 1.5 months with just enough to get by. My mother ended up in hospital since three months ago and I had to pay for her because my dad doesn't have enough money. All of the money from my last payment has been spent for my mother's hospital and helping my dad and I was counting on the investment I made in bitcoins to pay the house rent and pay for food. I literally don't have enough money to buy food for more than a week or a few days more than a week.

You can't even think about the quality of life here, I was really rich with those savings before I lost it all. Only rich people have electronic devices and internet a bit better than dial-up. My house rent has already been delayed for 5 months and each month has a 5% fine, this is the last month, if I don't pay for it, I will have my stuff thrown out. I might be able to live with my dad and borrow some money from him for food but I will never do that, he already has his own problems so suicide is only honorable way to go now. I'm working from 8 to 5, and won't have any money until my next payment, I don't have any real life friends to borrow from, my life is literally ruined.

Because of US sanctions I had to use my friend's PayPal to invest my savings throughout this 1.5 year by wiring him the money legally. I have to pay for rents in 5 days and it takes me at least 2 days to sell the bitcoins and have the money in my own currency. I totally lost my life to 0.04% chance of losing, and since I can't pay for my expenses now and my mother gets out of the hospital next week and the money is fully paid, I'm gonna kill myself with poison in 3 days before I starve to death or make a family member some trouble. In those 3 days I'm going to search for a better and more efficient way to kill myself and hope maybe somehow a miracle happens.

I just wanted to say that I don't blame anyone but myself. I wrote the story here but I don't want to name any specific casino because I think that might scare a potential user or two and I really don't have any hard feelings for anybody or any casino. I also want to thank them for their fair service, that was totally my fate to lose to 0.04% and kill myself and I have no hard feelings against that casino or anybody else.

I wish you all a good life and good luck, if any of you know better ways to kill myself other than rat poison please tell them to me in PM. I know cutting myself is probably not gonna work and we don't really have buildings taller than 5 floors that I can jump off. Most people use taxis and old buses and I don't have a personal car either, so rat poison is the only ready option I have available but I read that it's not really efficient either. Please let me know if you know a better way to die for me, help me one last time...

[MRKLYE]

Been there..

Never gamble what you cannot afford to lose sir.

[Wendigo]

You forgot to insert your bitcoin address so people can donate to your rat poison fund.

[Parham6]

You forgot to insert your bitcoin address so people can donate to your rat poison fund.

I'm not looking to beg for coins, if I wanted to borrow, my dad could give me enough food for a month or so probably. Even if there was a way the get coins, it would probably too late for the debts and rent by the time I get them. What I was looking for here and suicide groups which were easy to find on google is some advice. After reading the wikipedia, I now think that the old rat poison I have in storage might do the job as well. By not getting the money in time, I can put other people and my dad in trouble too, if I'm dead that can't happen.

[Wendigo]

I hope some mod closes this atrocity of a thread as fast as possible.

[djarot]

Welcome to the club!

>> https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=452431.0

[lightlord]

If he posted a bitcoin address, and a donation I would supect its a scam or a sob story.

But almost all sob stories request BTC or $$$. Or cry for help. This one he doesn't ask, just
says I don't like begging, all I am saying Is I have a hunch that this suicide urge is potentiality the real deal.
And It needs serious investigation as suicide is considered both illegal, and a crime.

As always, the common saying goes, never gamble what you can't afford.

[Phinnaeus Gage]

Welcome to the club!

>> https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=452431.0

Adding him now. I wonder how many countries I'll end up representing.

[Phinnaeus Gage]

I read the story of a guy who managed to get faucet from a gambling website and get more than 3 btc to pay for his expenses so I thought maybe it can help me with my problems too but I lost some money. Then I came up with a decent strategy and took the loss back with some profit. This strategy had 0.04% chance of losing all the money but that happened and I lost 0.95 btc which was the savings of 1.5 years of work. I had to cut from my other things and save that money, then wire it to my friend's paypal so invest in bitcoins which was his idea actually and it was working just fine before I read about that guy on the internet. Today a friend of me gave me a few more cents in btc, but I lost them again to the same strategy.

I'm from Iran, you can't even imagine the hell I'm living in. 1$ is worth 40,000 my currency and you can get food for a day with that much. People are really poor in this country, we use dial-up internet. I get paid every 1.5 months with just enough to get by. My mother ended up in hospital since three months ago and I had to pay for her because my dad doesn't have enough money. All of the money from my last payment has been spent for my mother's hospital and helping my dad and I was counting on the investment I made in bitcoins to pay the house rent and pay for food. I literally don't have enough money to buy food for more than a week or a few days more than a week.

You can't even think about the quality of life here, I was really rich with those savings before I lost it all. Only rich people have electronic devices and internet a bit better than dial-up. My house rent has already been delayed for 5 months and each month has a 5% fine, this is the last month, if I don't pay for it, I will have my stuff thrown out. I might be able to live with my dad and borrow some money from him for food but I will never do that, he already has his own problems so suicide is only honorable way to go now. I'm working from 8 to 5, and won't have any money until my next payment, I don't have any real life friends to borrow from, my life is literally ruined.

Because of US sanctions I had to use my friend's PayPal to invest my savings throughout this 1.5 year by wiring him the money legally. I have to pay for rents in 5 days and it takes me at least 2 days to sell the bitcoins and have the money in my own currency. I totally lost my life to 0.04% chance of losing, and since I can't pay for my expenses now and my mother gets out of the hospital next week and the money is fully paid, I'm gonna kill myself with poison in 3 days before I starve to death or make a family member some trouble. In those 3 days I'm going to search for a better and more efficient way to kill myself and hope maybe somehow a miracle happens.

I just wanted to say that I don't blame anyone but myself. I wrote the story here but I don't want to name any specific casino because I think that might scare a potential user or two and I really don't have any hard feelings for anybody or any casino. I also want to thank them for their fair service, that was totally my fate to lose to 0.04% and kill myself and I have no hard feelings against that casino or anybody else.

I wish you all a good life and good luck, if any of you know better ways to kill myself other than rat poison please tell them to me in PM. I know cutting myself is probably not gonna work and we don't really have buildings taller than 5 floors that I can jump off. Most people use taxis and old buses and I don't have a personal car either, so rat poison is the only ready option I have available but I read that it's not really efficient either. Please let me know if you know a better way to die for me, help me one last time...

Forgot to quote the OP.

[Unluckyduck]

Been there..

Never gamble what you cannot afford to lose sir.

*Still advertising a dice site  I think you are still there

[Micky25]

With this perfect English you should easily find a better paid job.

But if you are really serious about suicide: I keep hearing of associations in your part of the world that take care of your family if you do them the favour of blowing yourself up in busy areas.

[pthnmj]

Due to the nature of this post,I think it would be viable if we all could get some coins together to get to this man. He doesn't deserve to end because of some silly 0.95BTC. I've lost 4.2BTC and I understand the pain, I wanted to cry extremely hard and end it all... I managed to get to 35BTC with it, until busting in two hard bets of 19 and 13BTC. Money isn't everything, and you (if you are still watching this thread) should know that.

Post your address, and I'm sure you might end up getting some donations to help you out.  Your story is very touching, and only a psychotic person could come up with this kind of story.

[escrow.ms]

Dude If you have problem of online gambling, let someone else store your funds or simply convert your funds in cash as soon as you get them and it's easy to earn money, but you need to do some kind of work.

Since your english is pretty good, article writing job is better for you or you can simply join some signature campaign and earn money by making posts here.

[Parham6]

If he posted a bitcoin address, and a donation I would supect its a scam or a sob story.

But almost all sob stories request BTC or $$$. Or cry for help. This one he doesn't ask, just
says I don't like begging, all I am saying Is I have a hunch that this suicide urge is potentiality the real deal.
And It needs serious investigation as suicide is considered both illegal, and a crime.

As always, the common saying goes, never gamble what you can't afford.

Thank you for trying to help me, but the only reason I posted this story was because I hoped it might save someone's else life. Someone who is about to make the same mistake as I did, and I don't want this to happen to anyone else.

Due to the nature of this post,I think it would be viable if we all could get some coins together to get to this man. He doesn't deserve to end because of some silly 0.95BTC. I've lost 4.2BTC and I understand the pain, I wanted to cry extremely hard and end it all... I managed to get to 35BTC with it, until busting in two hard bets of 19 and 13BTC. Money isn't everything, and you (if you are still watching this thread) should know that.

Post your address, and I'm sure you might end up getting some donations to help you out.  Your story is very touching, and only a psychotic person could come up with this kind of story.

Thank you too but please don't, it's just not gonna work out. If you really want my address, please PM me, I'll give it to you only because you can see how hard it was for me and tell your friends so they don't end up like me. But, the money I lost was just too much in my own currency and I'm probably late already. If I die my parents can get the insurance money, my dad can live happily with my mom after she gets out of the hospital.

With this perfect English you should easily find a better paid job.

But if you are really serious about suicide: I keep hearing of associations in your part of the world that take care of your family if you do them the favour of blowing yourself up in busy areas.

Dude If you have problem of online gambling, let someone else store your funds or simply convert your funds in cash as soon as you get them and it's easy to earn money, but you need to do some kind of work.

Since your english is pretty good, article writing job is better for you or you can simply join some signature campaign and earn money by making posts here.

I work from 8 to 5, I haven't gone to work in the previous days since it wouldn't matter after I die anyway. I told them I'm sick, I didn't lie, sick people can die, if I'm about to die I'm sick. It's way too long for my next payment and all my savings are gone now, so it wouldn't have matter if I went to work anyway. It's not that simple, I need the money soon and no job is going to get me that money that soon so I guess I'm done for.

If you really want to help please, please tell this to other people who might repeat my mistake. This way, I would have done one last good before death. You can ask me and show them my wallet so they see how easy I lost everything I worked so hard to collect as I will be here until the very end (I have nowhere else to be, I can't look at my parents while thinking about suicide).

[FanEagle]

I dont  know why you decided to gamble so much!If I was you I would just gamble 0.10! And surely not on dice!!!
If I was you I would have play ed blackjack. But still, I dont wanna look like an heartless persona but you could think about int when you where going to be psychologically dead?
You didnt putted the donation addy but we requested you one,so maybe we care about you dont you think?
But I can believe your honor is way stronger than your need of living your Life .
So if you want to really do that why you posted your don story then, because you wanted someone TO pat your shoulder and expect what?
Yea you can say sa but you are sponsoring a dice site! Im doing a favour, not because I paricularly love dice.


Edit:you fare doing this forma saving others? You could do that even broking out. But still thanks forma wanting TO help, but you Will bot save the world with your sacrifice.
If you want TO sa ve your parents only you know that they Will not be paid id you suicide?

[Parham6]

I dont  know why you decided to gamble so much!If I was you I would just gamble 0.10! And surely not on dice!!!
If I was you I would have play ed blackjack. But still, I dont wanna look like an heartless persona but you could think about int when you where going to be psychologically dead?
You didnt putted the donation addy but we requested you one,so maybe we care about you dont you think?
But I can believe your honor is way stronger than your need of living your Life .
So if you want to really do that why you posted your don story then, because you wanted someone TO pat your shoulder and expect what?
Yea you can say sa but you are sponsoring a dice site! Im doing a favour, not because I paricularly love dice.

I posted it because my heart tells me there are many people like me, I don't want them to ruin their lives by careless betting. You are totally right, I shouldn't have put everything I had on the line, but the chance of losing it all was only 0.04%. What made me do it was the story of a guy who managed to get 3 btc with faucet and pay for his rents and expenses. I thought if he could do that with faucet, maybe I can do it with my own money because I really needed the money and was like him.

If anyone wants my address, I can PM but only for you to see how I lost everything I had in a blink of an eye and show others who might do the same mistake as me so they won't.

[escrow.ms]

Btw What's your age ? and what work you do? Do you have any kind of computer related skills?

[FanEagle]

Re ad my edit mani, you Will not sa ve your parents with a suicide. Insurance doesnt pay if you die by your own hand.

[dwma]

If you think you had a .04% chance of losing then someone lied to you.  maybe you mean 4 % ?  .04% is 1 in 2500 chance of losing all your money.

You're obviously quite educated with the level of English in Iran.  If that much money is your life savings, then you really just need to apply yourself in some other manner.  How much money do you make in a day working 8 hours ?  Maybe it is hard to earn money on the internet while being in Iran, but seems like you could do better.

Also if you are going to kill yourself, stick with hanging.  Rat poison sounds like a nasty affair where you will internally bleed to death.

[Parham6]

Re ad my edit mani, you Will not sa ve your parents with a suicide. Insurance doesnt pay if you die by your own hand.

They do, according to their terms any cause of death is accepted.

Btw What's your age ? and what work you do? Do you have any kind of computer related skills?

I'm 22, I work in an office as manager (boss), that's why I could save that much in less than 2 years and that's why I could tell them I'm sick and take a few days off before killing myself. Not much, my English is good and I can google things I don't know so that makes me an above average user.

If you think you had a .04% chance of losing then someone lied to you.  maybe you mean 4 % ?  .04% is 1 in 2500 chance of losing all your money.

You're obviously quite educated with the level of English in Iran.  If that much money is your life savings, then you really just need to apply yourself in some other manner.  How much money do you make in a day working 8 hours ?  Maybe it is hard to earn money on the internet while being in Iran, but seems like you could do better.

Also if you are going to kill yourself, stick with hanging.  Rat poison sounds like a nasty affair where you will internally bleed to death.

We don't get paid on hourly basis so I don't know how much I make in 8 hours. Most people use Dial-Up internet or don't use it at all here, I was kinda rich before losing all my savings. You can't imagine how much a few dollars can be worth around here. I don't know anyone who makes money from the internet here personally, but I suppose there could be some people.

I really don't have the craftsmanship to hang myself, rat poison seems to be the most efficient way for me.