Suicide Notes - Gambling literally destroyed my life

[FanEagle]

wow then, fake your death they will pay too.

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[Parham6]

wow then, fake your death they will pay too.

Enjoy your time, make fun of me.

[dwma]

Re ad my edit mani, you Will not sa ve your parents with a suicide. Insurance doesnt pay if you die by your own hand.

They do, according to their terms any cause of death is accepted.

Btw What's your age ? and what work you do? Do you have any kind of computer related skills?

I'm 22, I work in an office as manager (boss), that's why I could save that much in less than 2 years and that's why I could tell them I'm sick and take a few days off before killing myself. Not much, my English is good and I can google things I don't know so that makes me an above average user.

If you think you had a .04% chance of losing then someone lied to you.  maybe you mean 4 % ?  .04% is 1 in 2500 chance of losing all your money.

You're obviously quite educated with the level of English in Iran.  If that much money is your life savings, then you really just need to apply yourself in some other manner.  How much money do you make in a day working 8 hours ?  Maybe it is hard to earn money on the internet while being in Iran, but seems like you could do better.

Also if you are going to kill yourself, stick with hanging.  Rat poison sounds like a nasty affair where you will internally bleed to death.

We don't get paid on hourly basis so I don't know how much I make in 8 hours. Most people use Dial-Up internet or don't use it at all here, I was kinda rich before losing all my savings. You can't imagine how much a few dollars can be worth around here. I don't know anyone who makes money from the internet here personally, but I suppose there could be some people.

I really don't have the craftsmanship to hang myself, rat poison seems to be the most efficient way for me.

You can't take how much you are paid and divide by the number of hours to get your hourly wage ?  This is getting weirder by the minute.  Yet you somehow calculated your gambling edge to be .04% ?   You can't tie a knot in a rope because you don't have the craftsmanship?  This is bizarre.  Rat poison will be slow and you'll freak out and likely go to the doctor or something after second thoughts and the symptoms kick in.

Having to utilize dial-up would make it hard to make money on the internet as most of the internet isn't really even usable with such a slow link.

If you are a real person and your story is real, you still have a job that pays ok for your country.  Just continue working and stop gambling.  

[FanEagle]

if you wanna save more than 10 ppl....post your story on reddit

[Parham6]

You can't take how much you are paid and divide by the number of hours to get your hourly wage ?  This is getting weirder by the minute.  Yet you somehow calculated your gambling edge to be .04% ?   You can't tie a knot in a rope because you don't have the craftsmanship?  This is bizarre.  Rat poison will be slow and you'll freak out and likely go to the doctor or something after second thoughts and the symptoms kick in.

Having to utilize dial-up would make it hard to make money on the internet as most of the internet isn't really even usable with such a slow link.

If you are a real person and your story is real, you still have a job that pays ok for your country.  Just continue working and stop gambling.  

They don't pay me by hours, they pay me each 1.5 months for all those hours minus the days off. What would be the point of calculating how much I earn each hour feeling what I'm feeling now? I didn't calculate the 0.04% myself, there was a chat on the gambling site and other users pointed the strategy out and I just changed it a bit. I can tie a knot, but you wouldn't understand what I mean unless you see my house. I read on internet that if you take enough rat poison, even after you go to a doctor they wouldn't be able to save you, I'm gonna take everything I have in the storage.

I don't use dial-up myself, I use 128 kbps ADSL but not many people have that because they usually don't need it or don't know about it. I do get enough from my job to get by but because of the cost of my mother's hospital I'm having a really though time these days. I had to delay my rent more because I had to pay for her hospital, now without the saving I can't pay for the rent and this is the last month. My calendar is different that yours, you can read about it if you want. When I receive the next payment from my job, it will be late. The money I have now would only be enough for buying food for a week or so and I can't pay the rent in time.

[FanEagle]

Then its your own fault trying TO  ab "histaker" then.
Your fault to pick a not skillful game. Even I from 1000 satoshi i reached 0.07

[dwma]

You can't take how much you are paid and divide by the number of hours to get your hourly wage ?  This is getting weirder by the minute.  Yet you somehow calculated your gambling edge to be .04% ?   You can't tie a knot in a rope because you don't have the craftsmanship?  This is bizarre.  Rat poison will be slow and you'll freak out and likely go to the doctor or something after second thoughts and the symptoms kick in.

Having to utilize dial-up would make it hard to make money on the internet as most of the internet isn't really even usable with such a slow link.

If you are a real person and your story is real, you still have a job that pays ok for your country.  Just continue working and stop gambling.  

They don't pay me by hours, they pay me each 1.5 months for all those hours minus the days off. What would be the point of calculating how much I earn each hour feeling what I'm feeling now? I didn't calculate the 0.04% myself, there was a chat on the gambling site and other users pointed the strategy out and I just changed it a bit. I can tie a knot, but you wouldn't understand what I mean unless you see my house. I read on internet that if you take enough rat poison, even after you go to a doctor they wouldn't be able to save you, I'm gonna take everything I have in the storage.

I don't use dial-up myself, I use 128 kbps ADSL but not many people have that because they usually don't need it or don't know about it. I do get enough from my job to get by but because of the cost of my mother's hospital I'm having a really though time these days. I had to delay my rent more because I had to pay for her hospital, now without the saving I can't pay for the rent and this is the last month. My calendar is different that yours, you can read about it if you want. When I receive the next payment from my job, it will be late. The money I have now would only be enough for buying food for a week or so and I can't pay the rent in time.

You have explained yourself better.  The reason I ask about your hourly wage is it gives an idea what you could do that would be an improvement.  Your problem seems to be you don't have money. 

I would reconsider suicide.  I can't speak about Iran and all the weird social pressures you face because I do not understand. It seems like if you were paying for your mother's hospital you did an admirable thing.  There should be no shame in that.  Maybe you should move out of the house and move in with your father ?  Surely there must be some other option. 

If you think you can beat a gambling game, seriously reconsider it.  The people in the chat box might have been working for the casino.  The chances of you finding a casino that allows a strategy to beat it is approaching 0.  There are very few people in the world who do this, but many think that they can.  You are not alone.  You are still young and like to be dramatic.  You are 22, educated, have a better than average job.  You did the right thing helping your mother out.  I see no shame or why you would kill yourself.  I was pretty down on life when I was your age too.  Cheer up.  Life savings at 22 doesn't matter too much.  Gamblers lose their life savings all the time at that age. Stop gambling!

If you are going to kill yourself, please find some other way.  I can't imagine going out by rat poison, especially some poisons.  If it is cyanide then it might be over with quickly.  In America rat poison means you would slowly bleed to death.

[Light]

I would reconsider suicide.  I can't speak about Iran and all the weird social pressures you face because I do not understand. It seems like if you were paying for your mother's hospital you did an admirable thing.  There should be no shame in that.  Maybe you should move out of the house and move in with your father ?  Surely there must be some other option. 

If you think you can beat a gambling game, seriously reconsider it.  The people in the chat box might have been working for the casino.  The chances of you finding a casino that allows a strategy to beat it is approaching 0.  There are very few people in the world who do this, but many think that they can.  You are not alone.  You are still young and like to be dramatic.  You are 22, educated, have a better than average job.  You did the right thing helping your mother out.  I see no shame or why you would kill yourself.  I was pretty down on life when I was your age too.  Cheer up.  Life savings at 22 doesn't matter too much.  Gamblers lose their life savings all the time at that age. Stop gambling!

I would agree that you should really think about what you are doing. You really only get one shot at life so you might as well make the best of it rather than giving in and throwing it all away. You have faced hardship - the best way to approach it is to bounce back and fight harder.

From a mathematical perspective, you'll never actually be able to beat the house in the long run and while variance does happen and you can win you are just as likely to lose. No-one will or ever has found a strategy, to do so you would have to prove 1=0 and if you can do that we have some far, far, far bigger problems.

[dwma]

WHatever you do, do not play the holdem gambling game on ritzgrandcasino.  I have never seen a game as rigged as that one.  Seriously.  The rules are made so that it seems like it should be beatable, but then you realize that the dealt cards are not fair.  They are not anywhere near fair.  Ritz does not even try to be subtle about it.

[Light]

WHatever you do, do not play the holdem gambling game on ritzgrandcasino.  I have never seen a game as rigged as that one.  Seriously.  The rules are made so that it seems like it should be beatable, but then you realize that the dealt cards are not fair.  They are not anywhere near fair.  Ritz does not even try to be subtle about it.

I've seen people claim rigged-ness off a grand total of 3 rolls on JD before. If you want to claim that a casino is lying based off the results of the games then you would have to do at least 1 million bets to have the variance at a low enough point to actually suggest what your saying is true.

No game is 'beatable' if it has a house edge. You will lose in the end. On that note I can't claim to know whether they are fair or not - I have not personally audited their RNG system so I would urge you to check it yourself before you gamble there or anywhere.

[FanEagle]

wow then, fake your death they will pay too.

Enjoy your time, make fun of me.

I don't want to make fun of you, I have better ways to enjoy my time anyway.
I mean, you should just accept donations from the community to be on the right path.

We are all human afterall, we understand you, and as I said, if you wanted to play your luck with something real and risky, it's ok for me. Dice game is like asking to people... should I play next roll high or low?
You will find people that plays hi and some low.

While on blackjack for example your life is at risk when both of you and dealer have 11 and you decide to double the bet. That's the highest risk I would take.

[Parham6]

I don't want to make fun of you, I have better ways to enjoy my time anyway.
I mean, you should just accept donations from the community to be on the right path.

We are all human afterall, we understand you, and as I said, if you wanted to play your luck with something real and risky, it's ok for me. Dice game is like asking to people... should I play next roll high or low?
You will find people that plays hi and some low.

While on blackjack for example your life is at risk when both of you and dealer have 11 and you decide to double the bet. That's the highest risk I would take.

It's not that simple, I've lost too much coins and too much time for some donations to save me.  I've lost all of my savings, even if I get donations it would be far too late by the time I get enough to pay the rents. This is the last deadline for me, if I don't pay I have to empty the house. I can't take that much money from random people, even if they were kind enough to give it to me by the time I get it it would be too late. There's nothing I can do now, I have to pay the rent in 4 days max if I get lucky and take an extra day.

The only reason I gambled all my savings was because I needed more than it. Even if I get my initial savings back from donations, after paying the rents with it, I still wouldn't have enough to get by until my next payment or at least barely have enough.

[jambola2]

You forgot to insert your bitcoin address so people can donate to your rat poison fund.

I'm not looking to beg for coins, if I wanted to borrow, my dad could give me enough food for a month or so probably. Even if there was a way the get coins, it would probably too late for the debts and rent by the time I get them. What I was looking for here and suicide groups which were easy to find on google is some advice. After reading the wikipedia, I now think that the old rat poison I have in storage might do the job as well. By not getting the money in time, I can put other people and my dad in trouble too, if I'm dead that can't happen.

This may be slightly offtopic , but I was wondering something.

If poison is old and expired , does it become more poisonous or less poisonous ?

For your sake , I hope it does not become less poisonous , leading to a slow and painful death.

[jambola2]

WHatever you do, do not play the holdem gambling game on ritzgrandcasino.  I have never seen a game as rigged as that one.  Seriously.  The rules are made so that it seems like it should be beatable, but then you realize that the dealt cards are not fair.  They are not anywhere near fair.  Ritz does not even try to be subtle about it.

I've seen people claim rigged-ness off a grand total of 3 rolls on JD before. If you want to claim that a casino is lying based off the results of the games then you would have to do at least 1 million bets to have the variance at a low enough point to actually suggest what your saying is true.

No game is 'beatable' if it has a house edge. You will lose in the end. On that note I can't claim to know whether they are fair or not - I have not personally audited their RNG system so I would urge you to check it yourself before you gamble there or anywhere.

JD seems fair and easy to understand , yet not perfect.

On the other hand , RGC is really really shady.

I've been searching for ages , and you can really set a client seed.
But you have no idea to verify , you just need to hope that they used your seed.

I'm pretty sure they can't publish the numbers , as I wouldn't guess that they have really good odds.

[acs267]

Gambling is that, a gamble. Gamble responsibly. For fun.
And remember the House always wins.

[Parham6]

This may be slightly offtopic , but I was wondering something.

If poison is old and expired , does it become more poisonous or less poisonous ?

For your sake , I hope it does not become less poisonous , leading to a slow and painful death.

I don't really know but the one I have is really antique, what I know is that if I consume all of it, I WILL die eventually.

[jeremypwr]

Put it all on Nadal!   

If this is serious, please get off an internet gambling forum and seek mental advice and help from more qualified individuals    Hope this is a joke

[jambola2]

This may be slightly offtopic , but I was wondering something.

If poison is old and expired , does it become more poisonous or less poisonous ?

For your sake , I hope it does not become less poisonous , leading to a slow and painful death.

I don't really know but the one I have is really antique, what I know is that if I consume all of it, I WILL die eventually.

Okay , I've done some research.
It will still be poisonous and you will die a slow painful death from internal bleeding about 3 days after consuming it.
Not fun.

Anyways , how much exactly is your rent ?
You should scrape through , you can do it pretty easily with the internet and generous Bitcoiners. (assuming you don't get flagged as spam and burnt)

[Parham6]

Okay , I've done some research.
It will still be poisonous and you will die a slow painful death from internal bleeding about 3 days after consuming it.
Not fun.

Anyways , how much exactly is your rent ?
You should scrape through , you can do it pretty easily with the internet and generous Bitcoiners. (assuming you don't get flagged as spam and burnt)

From what I read, if I drink all I have, it shouldn't take more than a few hours. Maybe you've read about a different poison or what I have isn't called rat poison in English.

I have to pay 1 btc at least before the deadline only for the house rent alone and "lightlord" has been really generous trying to help me but I really can't accept money from other people. There's just no reason for them to help me, even if they're kind enough to do so, I still won't have enough in time so I asked him for a wallet and I'm gonna return him the coins he sent me. I only gave him wallet so he can see how I lost everything so suddenly.

[Wendigo]

Just find the highest building in your city and jump off the top balcony.
See you in another life mate.