OT: People, people, people!
Forgive me if i'm being too emotional this time.
I think i told you i will try Amanita Muscarina (aka. Fly Agaric) as dried powder, didn't i?
I got the order in the mail today.
I'm currently on about 80mg since 6 hours. The onset was barely noticeable, after about 45 minutes.
No visual effects, no spaced-off thoughts, no sensational feelings.
BUT:
1. Impulse control
2. Focus (!)
3. A feeling of inner peace
4. Earworms totally disappeared (i needed a few hours to notice that, though)
5. Details no more screaming at me for recognition (and dealing mentally with them), just taking notice of some.
I was able to communicate with one family member, while three other ones were chatting and Netflix was on, too. Situations like this were always a noisy mess to me before, i couldn't "hear myself talking", making conversations impossible.
Seems like this is finally a success. It's like
cocoa on steroids, and also less hard hitting plus longer lasting than Ritalin (so far).
I will wait until my mind is running wild again and then continue with an even lower dose (50mg).
I also think i can feel the first time what it actually means to be
satisfied.
I haven't even checked the BTC price since a couple of hours, until i followed up on the WO and Buddy helped me out

EDIT: mistyped something
EDIT2: No urge for coffee. Feels unusual, but fine.