Spoiler: (mostly)
OT Following up on the Muscarin experiment.
I had a night of energizing sleep. Surprisingly, because i used to wake up at the same level of tiredness than i went to sleep.
Next thing i noticed was the good old Earworm generator got energized as well (Sleep Token's "Infinite Baths", FYI).
It was harder to follow through conversations with simultaneously present background noises, which were all feeling annoying and almost overwhelming again, and a hint of the ability to (intentionally keep) focus was still there, leading to the assumption of a half-life in the range of 4-5 hours. It reminded me a little bit of Ritalin, but mixed with Benzodiazepine. Blood flow was considerably improved, but blood pressure was also lowered. My wife complained my body being to "hot" when we went to sleep, sadly she was speaking only of temperature. The bowel got activated, but not in unpleasant ways. I'd call step one a success. It was showing me what the Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity in adult AD(H)D really means by completely stripping those symptoms for about 8 hours, and gradually fading them in again in about the same time.
A little introduction into AD(H)D:
Imagine you want to dig a hole in the garden, you go outside to the shed, already thinking about something else, when the the grass suddenly catches your attention for being a little too high. So you open the door to the shed and look at the mower and think "this needs to be done first". While filling the tank, you notice foliage lying around the trees, so you get the rake and start making piles. An hour later, you notice you got thirsty, need to pee and leave the garden for taking care of that inside the house. Inside the house, you notice the dishwasher peeping it's ending score, so you take out the stuff and put it away, to discover that the dishwasher could need a quick clean, which you do thoroughly for the next 40 minutes or so, but then you really feel you got to goo and take a pee. In the bathroom, you remember the hole you wanted to dig.
So out to the garden again, your eyes are catching the mower, so you start it up and turn around, look at those piles of leaves and think you best gonna put it away before mowing, so you stop the mower and do just that. You get done in 10 minutes but the wheelbarrow got dirty in the process, so you clean it, even more intensive that needed, when you find the wheel could need new bearings. Luckily you have impulse-ordered some a few months ago in foresight. So off to the basement to look for the bearings, which are found after half an hour, but not beacuse they were stowed away somewhere deep, but you walked by a pile of clothes that definitely needed a wash, right now. But before you could do that, the washing machine needs to be emptied, the clothes hung up, and wrinkle-free at best too. You had to keep the bearings in one hand, not to forget about what your original plan was, and to lay them to the side and forget where you put them in a few seconds.
OK, so bearings changed in a matter of minutes, but when putting back the tools you needed, you notice that you're really thirsty, go inside take a glass out of the cabinet and notice it's not perfectly clean, which makes you look at every glass in the same cabinet, putting the not perfectly clean ones aside and start cleaning them, which really gets you more thirsty, but you know, if you don't finish the current task now, you will probably never do it. Later, all the glasses are dried, clear and back in the cabinet, but ordered by size and shape, which took another five minutes. Then you take one and drink some tap water. Feels great. A little later, while reading the newspaper and drinking some freshly brewed coffee, you remind that damn hole again (do
you too?), so it's off to the garden again where you spot the mower. DAMN!
Mowing the lawn for one hour, putting it all away, but you really have no time to clean things now. You run to the shed, grab the shovel and look at a pile of tools you wanted to clean last time, but they are all stained and dirty.
The story is already long enough, so i'll fast forward:
In the evening, you have perfectly cleaned all your tools in the shed, but you feel quite wasted, suddenly you remember that appointment you missed and start thinking "i should call. How would i apologize? I need a good reason, so lets find one..." probably not making that call this evening, but maybe tomorrow, and.... HOLY FUCK, did i even dig that hole??!! (Which makes you feel terribly useless for the rest of the evening, and probably the next few days too, so you decide to cancel all phone calls and meetings).
Three days ago, i wouldn't even remember what the purpose of this little story was, mid-typing.
I wrote that on 40+mg of mushroom powder, which is yesterdays dose halved, and that's probably why it didn't get a mess, or more messy than it already got. Quite stringent, i think, and i even remember what i wrote, what this posting is (or should be) about and that i have to go buy some important things next. These three things, i surprisingly remember today. I didn't have to scroll up dozens of times to remember what i already wrote. I didn't spot errors, i hit the backspace key about 20-30 times less often than usual. I feel confident to send this post without feeling the need of editing it a couple of seconds later (and rinse/repeat that for a few times).
My earworm reappeared shortly for a few moments while typing this, my coffee cravings returned, but less intensive. I finally feel something like being aware of time passing. Yesterday felt like the day had two extra hours.
It seems that the sweet spot of dosage is around 60mg for the current batch i ordered, which should last for two years after doing the maths, and it feels truly life changing.
So if you know somebody close to you who is battling ADHD and doesn't tolerate stimulants well or wants to get off amphetamines that his/her insane doctor prescribed, and this person is able to safely dose, take and secure substances (for those with kids) which are not approved, this might be well worth a try.
Now i won't bother you with OT any longer for today, i finally have a plan for the day, i even remember it quite well and now it's time to go on with it.
In all excitement, i missed the Bitcoin funeral yesterday. Sorry
Have a nice day.
EDIT: OK, quickly re-reading, i did find a few minor errors, but i was able to leave them as they are. This is not the me i got used to, but i like some things about it.
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