Grief.
I can't stand life, lately. Too fucking complicated. I'm a simple fucking man at heart.
Life is pretty simple, but people are making it complicated.
I only managed the bulding of a house so far, and it gave me a hell of a bad time, too. We were on the verge of sueing the builder, but in the end we settled for money (less for him), only a light case, but it was shitty enough, given that i was in bad shape regarding my mind and body, had to quit working - most of you should know the story already.
Once things stick in the back of your head, you're better off compensating them. Balance your emotions. The easiest way is to spent about the same time (minimum) with simple, uplifting activities. Things you loved to do as a child, teen, young man. Bring back some spirit, to lift your soul up from the ground it has been dragged to. Meet people, i mean the ones you really care about, the ones that are funny and know you the best.
If you're a strong man, i'd reccomend you to learn that breathing method by Wim Hof and take those 2 minute cold water plunges. It's so stress relieving.
I know it became too popular lately, but it just works. After the first few breaths, your mind gets so calm inside, hard to compare, it's like MDMA without the excitement.
A big plus is that it's really simple to learn and do.
I spent a summer long without cold water, but five days ago the water in my dedicated barrel cooled down to 11°C. I was doubtful at first: "How did i even do this last winter every other day?" - 30 seconds later with my nipples two inches under water, that peaceful feeling kicked in again, flushing my mind with endorphines. And so i got hooked again.
Your mind will stay clear AF for a while after, try to embrace and extend this feeling as long as possible. Keep your hands and feet warm when dry again.
I can only reccommend this to bring up the levels of the right endorphines in the brain. It's so simple that it just works and it makes you more stress resistant overall.