Random thoughts
This is cathartic for me so I apologize in advance for the off-topic-ness. This year..and especially the last month has been a constant assault on my consciousness. Sometimes you just need to let it out.
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I moved out of California decades ago.. I never really missed it that much to be honest. I have relatives still living down there..but it became just a nice place to visit and I had and have no desire to ever go back. Until recently.
The Camp fire that destroyed Paradise also burned down the cabin where I grew up. It burnt the forests and creeks that I played in as a child. It burnt it all to ash..
I am still having trouble absorbing this and dealing with the reality of it. Time heals all wounds so they say.
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Sitting here half in my cup thinking about how blessed I have been in my life. Today I took a spill down the back staircase..landed hard on my arm. Thought I'd broke it again.but luckily its just a deep contusion(bruise). After spending several hours in the ER it dawned upon me once again that your health is what is really important in this life. All of this realization came while I sat there watching the chaos that is a busy metro emergency room. The couple in the corner worrying over domestic violence charges..the junkie talking to himself under the TV..overworked nurses scurrying to and fro with hooded eyes. The bottom line is your family, friends and good health are fundamental. Everything else is dross upon the sands of time.
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Its been one year to the day since my father passed.
I miss you Dad. You meant more to me than words can describe. You were a inspiration on so many levels it still blows my mind. Thank you for everything.
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I find myself listening to this a couple times a day..tears are never far behind.
"Dear Mister Fantasy play us a tune
Something to make us all happy
Do anything take us out of this gloom
Sing a song, play guitar, make it snappy
You are the one who can make us all laugh
But doing that you break out in tears
Please don't be sad if it was a straight mind you had
We wouldn't have known you all these years"
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A couple of perk's and a bottle of wine and look who waxes eloquent..
Be kind when you dont have to, you might be surprised at the results.
Peace