Daria Season 3 Episode 9, "Jake of Hearts", is related.

Thanks for the recent suggestions.  Also, this post is related and something for me to think about relative to this thread.

I updated my journal with a new entry and some resources for visit to a psychiatric crisis walk-in center today and other things.  My therapist referred me to go there this last Tuesday.  I was prescribed Paroxetine Hydrochloride for depression and Risperidone for mental/mood disorder, though the doctor specifically indicated that the latter medicine was for the nibble sensations.  O_O  I feel as if he did not understand that I wanted to be treated for the nibbling sensations and not for mental or psychological concerns.



see more pics and stuff in resources

Researching Paroxetine, I see:






This scares me and reinforces that which I despise medication.  I do not trust taking that particular medication.

Researching Risperidone I see:

that it seems okay mostly.  Is there anything that I should be concerned about?  I am still hesitant to start taking it though. =/  My concern is more relative to the nibble sensations than that of depression or mental disorder.  I would rather first cure/resolve these nibbling sensations.

Because `grep` (see original post) caught this.


I removed it.  Thanks.

Wikipedia has not forgiven GoDaddy for backing SOPA

Here's an update:

Businesses (Trade)

Bitcoin donation accepting sites

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And don't forget about The American Dream By The Provocateur Network

I redact my previous statement of seeing a psychologist or especially a psychiatrist (which is a medical doctor) or also a therapist as being a waste of time.

I'm not so sure what I am

Also, I just want to add that some of the nibbles feel like something is flying and bumping into me, and that has been the case since the very first of sensations and the reason why I thought they were bugs (also because I saw bugs, but never saw them on me).

Thanks for this!

See subject.  Note: You or anyone else can create a post or reply providing information for OpenVZ VPS providers.  It isn't necessary to attempt to encourage, influence, entice, motivate, inspire, persuade, force, manipulate or otherwise anticipate for me (1 of 50,000+ forum users) to do it.

http://help.cinfu.com/what-is-a-vps-server-also-known-as-vds-server-13/ "For our VPS servers we use OpenVZ technology."

Q: Are you also losing weight?
A: No, still I weigh ~120-125lbs as I have for the last 10+ years.

Q: How old are you, if you don't mind me asking?
A: 30

Q: How often do you bathe/shower?
A: Until a few months ago, once a day.  Now still mostly once a day, but sometimes I take two or more baths/showers and have up to four times a day.  The reason for such frequency is so as to exist in a place that seems peaceful from the sensations, and during my additional baths/showers each day, I generally just relax in water and do not use shampoo/conditioner/soap as I'm already clean from a previous bath/shower.

Q: What kind of soap and shampoo do you use?
A: The same kinds I have for most of my life.  Currently and for several years I've been using TRESemmé products: particularly shampoo and conditioner.  And for the last 5-20 years I've been using Dove soap.

Q: Do you know the pH of your water (i.e. do you have "hard water")?
A: I don't, but the water in this home environment that I am currently living in has hard water.  I have lived in this home many times throughout the last 15 years and never had a problem relative to the water.  This health issue began at another living space, but I am not sure of the pH level of the water there.

Can you put this in a more readable format (I do not understand your timestamp)? Once this is done we can attempt to look for a pattern.
From https://gitorious.org/health-journal/mizerydearia/trees/master
http://65.30.35.48/nibbles.2011.11.21.php
http://65.30.35.48/nibbles.2011.12.11.php
http://65.30.35.48/nibbles.2011.12.12.php

1) No and I haven't taken any medications in at least half a decade.

2) The timestamp is unix epoch timestamp.  Maybe see http://www.epochconverter.com/  Also I'll prepare a web based script to auto convert the timestamps and mention it here when finished.  The itchiness is relative to the intensity in which my mind comprehends the contact/sensation as undesirable and triggering of my touching it with my hand, and oftentimes also rubbing or scratching the affected location to relieve a mild itchiness that subsides upon contact, otherwise if left untouched, the itchiness subsides more slowly as with any other itch left untouched.  There is no pain other than the undesirability of the sensation which in itself is mentally or psychologically painful.  Also, though the sensations are not painful, in consideration of physicality, they are minisculy painful in that they affect a reaction from me to touch the affected area, but again, the sensation subsides.  It's been a while since I've had a mosquito bite, but I almost want to use mosquito bites as a comparison, but I'm not entirely certain from lack of experience with mosquitos in the last few years.

3) Yes, 'strand' of hair is what I meant.  I am not currently picking at my skin, however, regarding my hair, even before this health situation, I would periodically run my fingers through my hair especially so as to detangle it.  It is naturally curly and I've been growing it out for three or four years.  Regarding varying thickness.  As the first missing thicknesses became noticeable, each affected strand of hair still possessed most of its thickness (my hair was very thick since birth) and in just a tiny spot on the strand, perhaps the thickness of the sharp tip of a small hair scissors, there was a missing chunk in which the thickness in that spot would be half or less than half the thickness of the hair.  However, from later observations of hair strands, rotating them so I could see all sides of the strand I noticed that the missing thickness was not all the way around, and was only visible at certain angles.  After over half a year of many of my strands becoming affected I noticed that many of the strands were losing much more of the thickness across the length of the hair, but in many cases, not the entire length.  To me, it seems like the erosion or decay of the strands were gradual and started from the location in which the initial chunks of thickness were missing, and then through days, weeks, months, the thickness of the hairs were eaten/dissolved.  Now my hair strands are very thin, but still they are thick enough to exist and grasp sturdily.  However, several of my hairs have also become noticeably elastic or stretchy.  I'm not sure if it is perhaps the insides of the hair that are naturally stretchy and perhaps an outer protective casing/layer of the hair are not stretchy, or if there is some other explanation, but some of my hairs are stretchier than others.  As of now, the thinness of each hair spans across the entirety of each strand.  A few months ago, the thinness and thickness mix of each hair strand was in random locations in each strand, some perhaps near the base or root, some near the tip, some in middle and again, several strands had several gaps of thicknesses and thinnesses, and again over time the length of each span of thinness became longer and longer until now entire strands have lost all of their thickness.  I am not entirely sure, but I may have some of my hair in a baggy from years ago, that I used for a particular art project, and if so, perhaps I can make use of it to compare it to my current hair.  It will be a while before I can confirm if I still have the hair, if it is even useful.  Last part of the question, initially, it was isolated strands, but over time, the isolatedness of strands became not so isolated as eventually most and all of my hairs became affected.  And now, 99-100% of my hairs are affected.  I can't even find a hair that is unaffected to compare to anymore, which makes it difficult to realize the reality of which my hair was thick at one point.  The only truth I have to my hair having been thick is that of my memory and also especially my parents who are most familiar with me.

4)

Yep.  As stated in original post "Prices are as of January 25, 2012."

I have not yet even seen a medical doctor.  I shall eventually.

That study seems quite useful as yet another reiteration to resume consideration towards the patients each having psychological disorders as opposed to actual parasites, but does offer the reality for which investigations were limited such as with "There was no sign of an environmental cause, either, although researchers did not go to each person's house to look around.."

added: But even without the effort to look into each person's home, that is not so necessary, especially considering that whereever I go, whereever I live, the sensations continue.  So, it is not necessary to look into my home environments.  It is more helpful to look at me, to test me, test, study and investigate my hairs, blood, whatever.

As a victim of these very experiences that began a year ago, and the reality of which I know and trust myself (as do practically all people), I shall continue to strive fighting for my freedom to end these sensations so they do not occur anymore (whether they are parasitic or psychological), for it is the mere sensations that are disruptive towards me, and that is my greatest concern, to end them.

And in the case that even with much influence to convince all affected patients (and the rest of the world) that these issues are psychological (as per influence from such 'studies' referenced in the article), what then?  Then effort must be pursued to train the human existence to establish thought processes that do not trigger the result of the sensation felt, as with any other psychological disorder that requires the existence to take mental action whether at their own abilities (which are unlikely) or with the aid of medicines produced within the medical industry that do not curse or destroy the thoughts, but merely allow the patient to subside to a weakened mentality so as to not trigger thought processes to occur, or something else entirely, I'm not entirely sure.  I'm not familiar so much with the medicines relative to psychological disorders.

However, I still strongly believe that my issue is not psychological.  Even with the reality that I see physical events or occurrences that seem to represent a kind of fungal, bacterial or other parasitical existence, it is also easy to include such experiences as per psychological evaluation and consideration as well as to dilute the events with influence suggesting that as per the psychological impairment of myself, that the sights I saw were self-induced or self-inflicted.

To me, with the conscience, understanding and perception that I have as per my experiences, I truly feel that still I suffer something parasitic.  I have seen with my own eyes while holding a strand of hair almost twenty-four inches before them, the tiniest of things clinging upon the strand.  To the touch of my fingers, they did not fall off the strand as I brushed them gently over the span of the hair.  In each occurrence (so far four) of these experiences, the specks of whatever (parasites?) dissolved before my eyes in a minute, and what I had initially felt while brushing my fingers over the strand of hair, was no longer.  However, on the latest such occasion or encounter of the phenomena, I saw what was more disturbingly shocking to me, that helped to strengthen my reality of which this health issue is parasitic and not psychological (again, it is easy to influence anyone that this is still psychological and that I was seeing things or even that I had made up the story in light of self-induced or self-inflicted experiences).  What I saw was another speck of whatever that had dissolved and just as it did, the strand of hair from where the speck was to the rest of the length (about two or three inches) had instantly bent upwards as it cracked.  And what was left afterwards was yet another thinned spot in the strand of hair.  Even before that very experience, for well over half a year I have endured the process of which my hair has become increasingly damaged and started with the first occurences of these thinning spots in which each strand had only one, and most of my strands of hair were unaffected.  Now ALL OF MY STRANDS are so very damaged to the point of more devastating erosion and decay.  And this is only my hair, but I feel it is the same infestation of parasites that has compromised my hair that is also compromising my skin and causing the sensations that I feel upon my skin.  I cannot feel sensations in my hair.  My hairs do not have nerves.  But I can feel on my scalp, and I oftentimes feel sensations upon top of my head, side of my head, neck, etc and everywhere else on my body even recently including a few now internal that I cannot reach to relieve touchingly or scratchingly.

I am under the greatest of influences and considerations that my health issue is NOT psychological and that it is parasitic and I will not give up or be influenced so easily and instead prepare myself usefully to help establish precedent of which the health issue may be realized or discovered to be parasitical.  I have yet to see a psychiatrist or other doctor other than a therapist, but even my one therapist has on several occasions expressed that she believes my issue is not psychological.  I shall not give up.  I shall survive and continue to strive to help contribute towards discovering exactly what it is that is affecting me.  I continue to grow my hair and let it endure damage, and perhaps as it continues to decay and become damaged, perhaps it may be useful to study and test to determine if there are parasites infesting my hair and body.

Also, thanks for sharing the article!  Perhaps I shall contact some of the people named in the article and share with them my public journal and effort.

Also, I referenced the article and my response to my therapist.  I shall not add it to the journal, but instead offer reference to this thread as part of it.

I apologize if you consider a suggestion or declaration of openvz as not real.  Perhaps 'real' is an inaccurate word to use to describe the difference between what openvz provides (or doesn't provide) to other types of virtualization implementations.  Wikipedia has a decent perhaps non-nasty explanation.  Besides...  the ability for any other human existence to prepare an alternative resource for similar or additional types of documentations is easily attainable, and if any such individual desires to pursue such efforts, they can easily make use of what I have publicly referenced here, including the gnumeric spreadsheet.

However, also to be fair is the reality of which pricing structures for openvz vary quite differently to kvm/xen vps providers in the sense that prices for openvz vps are oftentimes very much lower than xen/vm vps environments, and therefore, mixing them together without uniquely identifying them may cause confusion.  And since I didn't add reference to distinctly indicate which virtualization platforms were used, I decided not to include openvz because of the potential for the vast difference in pricing causing some confusion.

Microtronix doesn't offer a real vps environment, particularly xen or kvm.  I specifically did not include any openvz providers.  Feel free to take notice of the reference to such in the subject of this thread if it is of any importance, interest, concern, notability, value, substance, usefulness, significance or relevancy to you.

See https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=61129 for a simple comparison

A simple spreadsheet


Prices are in bitcoins and the columns of vps service plans are in order from lowest to highest sorted first by ram, then disk space, then bandwidth.  Prices are as of January 25, 2012.