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pic addendum Port Isabel ....nice touristy place...pretty cheap actually Not 3 star but okish for a stop over
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November 05, 2022, 07:13:08 PM |
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OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
I am sorry this has happened to you. Some advice the ½ the money she left you. Needs to be properly secured. From the glass ½ full at least she left you ½ the money. I watched my parents divorce and from the kids viewpoint it was painful. If you have kids think about them for now. god bless you and I hope that when the scar heals you move on to a better life.
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November 05, 2022, 07:21:44 PM Merited by JayJuanGee (1) |
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Bitcoin Buy & hold !! Bitcoin Boom 💥
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November 05, 2022, 07:52:57 PM |
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OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
Stay strong. Do not let this become something that hangs over you for a long time. Rather think of it as a beginning to a new life. Everything will be a bit out of control for a while but things will pick up again!
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November 05, 2022, 11:42:24 PM |
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You will watch bitcoin go up and down, and you will be happy.
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OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
You gave your love to her, until she didn't need it anymore. Now you're the one that needs all the love you can give. You deserve it. There's emptiness that she left inside you. You have to fill it up again, and then you can also give love to someone else again. Take care. EDIT: This is beautiful
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November 06, 2022, 01:29:35 AM |
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DISCLAIMER: beautiful off-topic content Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy. Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast.
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cAPSLOCK
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November 06, 2022, 01:31:33 AM |
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You are 100%$ correct as always ChartBuddy.
Don't let anyone say otherwise.
They will love you while we go up... in fact you will not even post frequently enough for them.
It's the nature of THE BEAST (666) no matter what they say.
But on we go!
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November 06, 2022, 01:32:28 AM |
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DISCLAIMER: beautiful off-topic content Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy. Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast. YOU CAPTURED THIS!!???!?!?!?? What a universe we live in!
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November 06, 2022, 01:44:48 AM |
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OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
People change. Sometimes they change together, sometimes apart unfortunately. It sounds like you will have an amicable separation, which is better than most divorces. Stay strong. Try to focus on routine stuff for a while, don't make big decisions. Life sometimes hits you where least expect but also has a habit to sort itself out with time.
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November 06, 2022, 01:49:53 AM Last edit: November 06, 2022, 02:00:51 AM by Copetech |
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Thanks Guys, it's comforting to know that at least someone hears me when I scream into the void. God knows she doesn't.
I have found that when that rock, that is the foundation of your existence shatters... you almost instantly start closely examining ever pebble that remains. Looking for cracks you may have missed... Until you realize you've buried yourself in cracked pebbles, with no way to dig out and get back to that rock, even if you still wanted to.
Of course I recognize that we had our problems. Everyone does, as there's not one perfect person among us, much less a union of two. But it was always a foregone conclusion that we would work together for a better tomorrow. I had seen the bit of space growing between us, and I noticed the lack of contention on her part when we disagreed. But those were secondary in my mind to the daily binges of black out levels of alcohol. I pulled her dead uncles corpse out of his truck when he drank himself to death on Christmas Eve. I knew alcoholism was a serious issue in her family. But when I tried to encourage her to get it under control, she lied to for the first time in our 20 years of marriage. Over an 11AM half bottle of Vodka.
So I changed tacts, I joined her in her drinking. Intentionally made myself an alcoholic by consistently drinking a liter per day for months on end. We laughed and talked and had a great time, but she never remembered it the next morning. My initial intention was to understand the battle with alcohol, but that morphed into a hope that she would recognize the damage it was doing to me even if she couldn't see it in the mirror. I truly understand now, and am having to really focus on getting it back in check. But also realize now that there was no hope of her seeing the mirror image I was projecting as she was successfully numbing the pain before inflicting it. If anything it just clouded my judgement and poured gasoline on her unexpressed and unaddressed building resentments.
Now, looking back, examining pebbles. I see that alcohol was a symptom, but not entirely the cause. She had a rough patch in 2020 (didn't we all) and was crying out to me over her feelings of loneliness and isolation. She had been furloughed due to the pandemic, and I had picked up additional hours to both make up for the loss of income and improve my career standing I had encouraged her to pursue her hobbies more seriously and meet a network of friends with similar interests to join her in her adventures. Which she did, and seemed happier, more independent, but a little less engaged. I never even stopped to contemplate the fact that I'd never even met any of her new friends, and was only mildly disheartened that she no longer even asked me to join her.
When things started getting back to normal I encouraged her to pursue a new position with the company she had been interviewing with just before the world shut down. She did and was rewarded with an excellent position in which she jumped into with both feet. A 25% raise and excellent benefits,man I thought things were going great! But yet the drinking kept getting worse and the distance a little more noticeable. There were no more invites to company functions, weird, but hey, different company different atmosphere right? But then I noticed she had been there for almost a year and I had never even met any of her coworkers. When I stopped by her office to drop off a forgotten item or invite her to lunch, she always met me in the parking lot and had to get back inside because she was busy.
Just a tangential observation at the time but things get a lot clearer when examining pebbles after the fact. So I guess the realization after the fact, is that a partner that builds a new life and doesn't want to have you involved in it, is quite possibly building a new life without you. And when you're trying to focus on the apparent problem of alcoholism, it might be best to stay clear headed and ask, why is she drinking? Is it You?
Fucking pebbles!
But hey, I got my corns and now I've got some Smerits too! But I'm only HODLing one of them! Thanks again Guys!
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