@ copetech.
I crushed myself from 1972 to 1985.
I started to attempt recovery in 1985.
1972-1985 drugs and complusive gambling.
I had a major psychotic break in 1972 on acid.
I had a medium psychotic break in 1975 on acid.
I had the long term descent into psychosis while in the Navy in 1981
Stopped drugs mostly by 1985 got a bit better.
stopped all drugs by 1991 got much better.
Met a really good psychologist in 1994 and still see her 28 years later.
I also ended gambling in 1990.
I am a life long asthmatic.
I also found out that I am diabetic in 2018 just in time to get treated and under control. So that When covid hit me in Jan 2020 I survived it .
Oh covid gave me pyronies disease my Johnson became bent into the shape of a C after three years of treatment it is bent like ( .
Never mind the 180 day viagra incident.
My psych meds were change in 2005 and they gave me 100mg viagra pills which I took for 180 days with out realizing that they were viagra.
I could write more as there are a lot of pebbles for me to toss about.
Left turns vs right turns etc. But all in all I am still here and efforting to be here for years to come.
The pain will fade and leave a scar.
When I think back to the viagra incident I get so freaking angry and it hurts to think of the suffering I endured running around with hardons basically like I was 15 and not understanding why it was happening.
One good thing was I realized 180 days zero symptoms of psychosis meant I could stop the psych drugs.
Which likely caused me the diabetes I found out about in 2018.
But with keto diet no drugs are needed for the diabetes .
So a gain.
What is my long speech about.life can toss lots of pebbles and you can still be okay.
At 65 I am doing pretty well. Current set of pebbles are caring for my dementia riddled bro in law.
But enough about my and my pebbles.
Shoot me a pm if you want to talk more.
Well, Phil, that's what I call brutal honesty about oneself.
I am of an upbringing that just cannot allow such open talk, sadly.
Perhaps, I need a good shrink.
9 year k to 8 Roman Catholic school. I was a real and true believer.
I thought I would be a priest between 7 and 8 grade puberty hit I knew being a priest and practicing celibacy was not something I was going to do.
Got lots of stories from back then but that would likely fill this entire thread with a shit ton of off topic info.
As for a good therapist they can help. A lot of stuff one can do is helpful.
Dropping into the bottle is a no go.
Constant drug use is a no go.
Constant gambling is a no go.
Or like my bro in law a carb addiction that actually speed up and increased his dementia literally earning his brain cells with the sugar in the carbs.
A no go.