I dont really have any religion
It's funny because 10 years ago I was thinking more like this, thinking religion is crap & all
But it's first when reading larouche, and it's very close to the issue of brainwashing in the end ..
It can be explained easily in term of freudian psychology, how what most people will call "Rationalism" "proof" "fact" is just pavlovian conditioning. .
How the "marxist super ego" actually end up "compressing" the subconscious in sort to fit into a model that satisfies the "it" with survival instinct into a model of bureaucracy and all that sort of stuff.
It's very easy to detect an indoctrinated mind as how it react when presented with new facts.
If the person start to get angry, emotional, unstable, it's clear sign of indoctrination.
A non indoctrinated mind can analyse new facts, new theories, no matter how "crazy" or "unconventional" it looks à priori without bias.
A true scientific mind must be able to turn any of its belief upside down and analyzes any theory and it's contrary.
When inversing the belief create this sort of infantile regression into insult, hamering the same thing, repeating again and again like if it make it more true, you know it's result of pavlovian conditioning, like the rat whose reality is limited to pressing a button to get food when the button stop to work as he is conditioned to think, he will become crazy as it's whole reality is based on satisfies the freudian "it" like a children , instead of behind actually rationally driven by super ego like an adult.
It's very clear to observe this pattern on people who will only give merit to a belief when there is a material reward for it, or "application", career, community recognition, job etc which is actually the diametrical opposite of rationalism and scientific thinking when it's not corrupt by economic/politics interest.
About god im still pondering like everyone
Im studying all theories with open mind
Im more fond of socratic method to reach truth, knowing the mind know how to recognize truth in very accurate maner when faced to it. Mathematics are proof of this.
It's bit like the hashing function in a way, the brain can check the result easily, but it's very hard to find the good formula that satisfy the mind & hearth like when listening to harmonious music
Finding the truth & god is more about removing bias and conditioning than learning theories facts & proof.
The process of formal proof is like rigorous analysis of the logic, the mind know how to make the difference, that's the only real tool of reality discovery
I find the bible examplify this magnificiently
the christianism really changed the deal on this side of giving more importance to inidivual perception rather than it's belonging to a kindgom or another.
Large part of this conditioning has to do with conceiving self only in term of "action" and "realisation" instead of reflection and contemplation , kinda masculine principle instead of feminine. For those guy, admiting good things can happen on their own without their mighty action will make them histerical, as they feel the very conception of their existence is threatened.
