Today is going to be a crazy day.
In these moments it is
like being in the middle of the ocean with the sea calm, stereo on, coffee, happy saturday
Sometimes it's both.
Did i write about my wife getting educated in hypnosis recently?
I know that is completely off topic(s), but i'd like to share the following experience, and what it did to me.
First, i had self-hypnosis, meditation and NLP practice starting about 20 years ago already, so i am a person that gets into trance more easily than most other people.
Second, i always considered myself as almost impossible to be consciously manipulated by others.
Third, in the realm of the unconscious, i was proved wrong.
So we already had two sessions so far, one to check out my ability to get into hypnosis, the second one to help my selfie to stand more by my values, where i was feeling to adjust to others too often/quickly.
The third one was of type "return to a life before getting reincarnated into the current one". The one most people experience themselves as their former "me", mostly human.
I'll try to make the path to it short: I just had exercise and my mind was pretty active. It took me about 5 minutes to get into trance, and left the guidance and moderation to my unconscious self and the voice of my beloved guide.
I was floating about 1000 to 1500 meters high in windy heights, it felt a little cold to me. I was looking at an island in front and below me, it had perfectly circular shoreline and shaped as a perfect cone with concave sides, becoming progressively thinner near the top, like a circus tent. Snow and ice on the top quarter or so, absolutely flat surface, like printed on it. The waters were silver-greyish and rippled with waves, a little glowing somehow, but the sea didn't move at all. It felt like i had a body, but i couln't look at it. I exactly felt that my arms ended above elbow level, and from an inch or two below the solar plexus my body sensation was like "cut off", with a glowing warmth, radiating from this region into my body, along the edges of my ribs, like the boundaries of the lungs. I didn't breathe. I had no name i was aware of, i was floating in a fixed position and the cool winds were blowing around my body.
I was waiting. Peacefully and patiently, with that glowing feeling embracing and radiating through my body. When i was asked how long i was waiting, i said "for a long time". Asked further, it turned out that i had no idea of how long and what exactly i was waiting for. I was not able to look at other things than the mountain island.
Then it went black, and i sensed the sensation of the light in a room getting brighter, observed with closed eyes. But the light didn't actually get brighter, i was aware that i was "back in reality", after getting "kicked out".
The reason of me getting kicked out was a slight "mistake" made by my guide, i won't get into it more deeply here, because it didn't matter for me.
Now, what's it all related to the quote i put in bold letters?
When i opened my eyes, i could still feel the sensation described above, throughout my inside (#nohomo btw.)
It lasted through the whole day, and it made me feel exactly
... like being in the middle of the ocean with the sea calm ...
which triggered my reply, which i originally intended to keep off WO because off topic, and yeah - who would even believe this, from a random fellow on the interweb?
Now this happened on tuesday, and the thing is... it made myself more peaceful, to put it in a word remotely able to describe what i mean.
Not just noticeably, but almost like forced. On the first few days after it, my selfie ego fought back to gain control, and it did to some extent, but i don't really care, because i now know what "it" feels like, and i just have to remember it, to start bringing it back. It is somewhat different to anything i experienced in meditation before. Currently a lot in my life is changing, in terms of perspective. Only a few experiences on drugs like LSD had this quality of an impact on my perception of myself and/or my environment.
Most people on this kind of hypnosis experience "former" lives of themselves as some person with some trouble or history, influencing ones current life. I heard some stories before, from people i know that went under that kind of hypnosis, and they all had experiences that made them look different at their struggles, making it easier for them to solve. I was a sceptic every time.
I feel like maybe there is something we all forgot about. Something we were maybe experiencing from some stage as unborns, when we were free from conditioned emotions and thoughts. I'm not getting crazy, i already was in past times, so i think i can differentiate between my crazy and "normal" me
If anybody here has been helped by reading this, or will help him/her in the future, i'd be happy enough that i decided to share it.